I Can Live Without You

Today went well!

I conversated in the morning with Gilbert more than usual BUT it's okay! Lols... after I knocked out till I got to school =] In English I just turned in my work and did the class discussion! I love participating! I think I'm a nerd D: In Philosophy Bridgette was sad that our seats were gone again so we sat apart once more. Oh well class was fun. Last math. Easy. =]

When I got home Monica and I went to Panera Bread for lunch! My goodness was it quite refreshing! It was more amusing hearing Monica tell me how excited she was =] We talked about so much and then we saw Ms. Zelnick LMAO interesting... no really I did enjoy how it was so chill and such a conversational environment.

I TAUGHT MONICA HOW TO:
Bend Your Knees

We rented DVDs and then watched them. First we watched, Diary of a Mad Black Women then Just Friends! It was hilarious! Then baked brownies! =] YUMMY!

*btw I should slap your face for always trying to hide shit. 'tsk tsk tsk' We've talked bout it before. I suppose nothing really changes eh?*

Regardless of that mess, I am still happy with my life and I am enjoying every aspect as much as I can. I guess this whole time I was seeking help from others, but the first step is to help yourself. =] Nothing is in my control and I am moving on to find the right path. Just because I am happy doesn't mean I have my life back together and all, it just means I know what to do and slowly putting it back. If the pieces don't fit anymore, then I can always fill it in with something new. I'm not rushing to be happy, because I am still learning about life and myself.

I think I want to enhance everything and create a change that reflects inside and out! Though I love myself the way I am I guess I can start up on something new-ish. I believe I thought about it a lot but is hard to keep consistent cause of school, but I think I can do it this time =]

P.S.

Daddy I miss you.
I pray for you as much as I can and I'm being strong like you taught me. Life is hard without you, but I have to continue moving forward with my life to fulfill the dreams you wanted me to succeed. I know I'm not the brightest child, but I do my best to get to the light. I know that if you never passed I would never have to face all these trials that are being thrown at me. Monica is right though, God never gives us too much for us to handle cause he knows whats best. I miss you though and I love you. I just hope you never forgot that because you haven't visited me lately. I heard you played pool with David =] I hope you're okay. It's almost 6 months.. May you rest in peace.


Love Always,
Valerie C. de los Santos