Saturday, February 28, 2009
Family is All I Have
I failed completely this morning in waking up for Monica and I's jog. My mom turned off my alarm so I woke up an hour later and she was getting ready for 'school' (which she didn't go to either). I ended up eating a big breakfast and getting ready to go to Long Beach. My mind was pretty scattered up to now and I don't really enjoy this feeling. Before I left I had to drop off Apa at David's house because the people working on our house was still here and we didn't want her to run away. After that I kept listening to music in the car, just pondering about my thoughts, but the car made me get motion sickness. Damn it. Oh well, when we got there I did enjoy being around my family. Mizu and Kimee were there! =] I did love talking to them and we teased Justin for awhile. I am supposed to go over to his house to play videogames, but I am in such a lame mood to do anything. On my way home I think Rachel made me feel stupid for awhile for what happened in the car and crap, but oh well. I was texting Monica about how lame I was feeling for a bit. Idk. I woke up not so long ago and my mom was massaging my neck cause I was so wah-wah. Mm. idk. Even though today wasn't the best day for me like all the others, I still ended up being happy for what my cousins were telling me.
I've Never Felt So Much Joy
Well today I said I wouldn't go on, but I obviously lied Tee Hee =]
I picked up Monica from school and went to McDee's and treated her to some food. It was nice talking to each other, but that damn door next to me kept making me cringe because of how irritating the noise was. Oh well, after we ate we headed to.... Nogales and sat in my car blasting music. I love how when Taking Back Sunday came on we were like going nuts! Bwahahha then Alan was like O.o When Kyle got out Monica and I joined him in dancing while Fawzi was yelling SHUT UP TURN THAT SHIT OFF! LMAO! =] I love him anyways. We went to visit my Dad at the cemetary and then I pretended to leave Monica there HAHA. Anywho I dropped her at Jessica's house and then Kyle and I went to my prayer meeting.
I got to admit Kyle and I killed that Slowmotion song! =] We made it to a duet! Freaking dope. Before the prayer meeting started Gerard kept trying to imply for me to practice my solo because he finally learned the drum part. So I was all, so you want to practice and hes all, I know you want to sing. We kept doing that for quite some time till we distinguished we both wanted me to sing for fun LMAO. I was happy to hear good reviews on my solo I sang today! I feel kind of proud I sang out since thats what they really wanted. I was even more happy to know Kyle was enjoying it and wants to become a regular! Oh Man. I love him so much. There were many parts where I just wanted to cry because I was so happy he supported me since I never get a chance to see him much. Ah... when we did the gospel reading it touched me on how he said his reflection I was like O: Then again after Kyle and I had some moments to talk to each other about things. I do enjoy being around him and I am glad he's still my best friend =]
After I picked up Monica and Jeska at Jack in the Box and headed back to the prayer meeting. Just chilled and I refreshed Jeska's memory of Once Upon A Time! She did an outstanding job! Then at my house we just ate chinese food and watched some old stuff. D: I really miss choir and my passion for singing has been growing fonder =] Oh man. So much in my life is changing its unbearable, but I am taking a chance in something new.
That's accepting change and taking chances.
I picked up Monica from school and went to McDee's and treated her to some food. It was nice talking to each other, but that damn door next to me kept making me cringe because of how irritating the noise was. Oh well, after we ate we headed to.... Nogales and sat in my car blasting music. I love how when Taking Back Sunday came on we were like going nuts! Bwahahha then Alan was like O.o When Kyle got out Monica and I joined him in dancing while Fawzi was yelling SHUT UP TURN THAT SHIT OFF! LMAO! =] I love him anyways. We went to visit my Dad at the cemetary and then I pretended to leave Monica there HAHA. Anywho I dropped her at Jessica's house and then Kyle and I went to my prayer meeting.
I got to admit Kyle and I killed that Slowmotion song! =] We made it to a duet! Freaking dope. Before the prayer meeting started Gerard kept trying to imply for me to practice my solo because he finally learned the drum part. So I was all, so you want to practice and hes all, I know you want to sing. We kept doing that for quite some time till we distinguished we both wanted me to sing for fun LMAO. I was happy to hear good reviews on my solo I sang today! I feel kind of proud I sang out since thats what they really wanted. I was even more happy to know Kyle was enjoying it and wants to become a regular! Oh Man. I love him so much. There were many parts where I just wanted to cry because I was so happy he supported me since I never get a chance to see him much. Ah... when we did the gospel reading it touched me on how he said his reflection I was like O: Then again after Kyle and I had some moments to talk to each other about things. I do enjoy being around him and I am glad he's still my best friend =]
After I picked up Monica and Jeska at Jack in the Box and headed back to the prayer meeting. Just chilled and I refreshed Jeska's memory of Once Upon A Time! She did an outstanding job! Then at my house we just ate chinese food and watched some old stuff. D: I really miss choir and my passion for singing has been growing fonder =] Oh man. So much in my life is changing its unbearable, but I am taking a chance in something new.
That's accepting change and taking chances.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Since I Plan on Not Using the Web Tonight
My day is fairly boring but I hope I do enjoy it in the end =]
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Want It and Love It
Well I can't remember quite well what exactly happened yesterday besides school and stuff.
English- I was the only one who had my essays to turn in.
Phil- Midterm
Math- Review for Midterm.
After I picked up Fawzi from school and then Monica and headed to mall. Thank you Fawzi for buying my top! =] Bloops "Fawesome" hahaha I felt sick so we went back to my place and watched Catch Me if You Can. Good movie. Fawzi left and Monica and I ate a bit. I dropped her at Jeska's place and I headed to Gerard's house for prayer meeting practice. Yet again I was doing homework during the Bible Study part. I feel bad for doing that, but I was so stressed and had a major headache at the same time. After we started to sing. I like the songs this week =] I like my solo, but I am kinda sad no oneelse knows it even though Chevy sent it out to everyone else lmao. Blarghs. I thought it was funny when she dropped her mic during Sonny's solo. I was trying so hard not to laugh! =] Bloop.
Today
School was okay.
In Communications class I was practically falling asleep! I felt bad everyone that was in the front seat was like knocking out on their desks. Though I thought my Professors persuasive speech was pretty cool! Now I shall carry a pencil around forever! (had to be there) He let us out 30 minutes early so I went into the Library and finished up my Math homework. When Niko got there we talked a bit and then I fell asleep. Lol the way he woke me up was funny by sliding my phone onto my face which was lying flat onto my mathbooks D: btw Math Midterm I think I didn't finish like 3 problems =[ Damnit. I realized those 3 problems were all similar but I couldn't remember how to do them.
I am preparing to get ready for the Solo Concert tonight since I am singing with my Babyboo Monica and David. I hope tonight is fun. Regardless what happens I keep my head up! The only difference is that I am extremely tired. I wish my camera still worked. D: *pout* Well ta ta I shall update later.
After Solo Concert
I got to admit this solo concert was legit and fun! I got to meet new people and reunite with the old! I love it! I missed Kyle so much! =[ It was fun doing all these funny colorguard stuff with him though it wasn't good I was in shorts doing it too LMAO But yah soloists did an outstanding job! After Monica and I ate at Denny's and had another cool conversation day! =] Those guys... *shakes* so creepy. IDK. but yea.
I'm enjoying every moment. =] Lalique I truely miss you.
English- I was the only one who had my essays to turn in.
Phil- Midterm
Math- Review for Midterm.
After I picked up Fawzi from school and then Monica and headed to mall. Thank you Fawzi for buying my top! =] Bloops "Fawesome" hahaha I felt sick so we went back to my place and watched Catch Me if You Can. Good movie. Fawzi left and Monica and I ate a bit. I dropped her at Jeska's place and I headed to Gerard's house for prayer meeting practice. Yet again I was doing homework during the Bible Study part. I feel bad for doing that, but I was so stressed and had a major headache at the same time. After we started to sing. I like the songs this week =] I like my solo, but I am kinda sad no oneelse knows it even though Chevy sent it out to everyone else lmao. Blarghs. I thought it was funny when she dropped her mic during Sonny's solo. I was trying so hard not to laugh! =] Bloop.
Today
School was okay.
In Communications class I was practically falling asleep! I felt bad everyone that was in the front seat was like knocking out on their desks. Though I thought my Professors persuasive speech was pretty cool! Now I shall carry a pencil around forever! (had to be there) He let us out 30 minutes early so I went into the Library and finished up my Math homework. When Niko got there we talked a bit and then I fell asleep. Lol the way he woke me up was funny by sliding my phone onto my face which was lying flat onto my mathbooks D: btw Math Midterm I think I didn't finish like 3 problems =[ Damnit. I realized those 3 problems were all similar but I couldn't remember how to do them.
I am preparing to get ready for the Solo Concert tonight since I am singing with my Babyboo Monica and David. I hope tonight is fun. Regardless what happens I keep my head up! The only difference is that I am extremely tired. I wish my camera still worked. D: *pout* Well ta ta I shall update later.
After Solo Concert
I got to admit this solo concert was legit and fun! I got to meet new people and reunite with the old! I love it! I missed Kyle so much! =[ It was fun doing all these funny colorguard stuff with him though it wasn't good I was in shorts doing it too LMAO But yah soloists did an outstanding job! After Monica and I ate at Denny's and had another cool conversation day! =] Those guys... *shakes* so creepy. IDK. but yea.
I'm enjoying every moment. =] Lalique I truely miss you.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
So Clear
I'm not going to lie today was pretty bombdiggity.
Gilbert and I did this weird driving thing in the morning that ended up proceeding well! I got to school and I was so tired. Communications class was dope though. We had a random debate on random topics. The most hilarious topic was the guy groups, "What is the best sex position" LMAO Man their debate was hilarious! Mines was People should all have bf/gf's and I won! =] hahaha heck yesss! Amy and I were nervous in the beginning but then it was all easy! =] I can't believe I did well on my speech except that one mistake on my outline D: Blarghs. Oh well. Anywho, I didn't go to math cause I had a doctors appointment, that ended up being cancelled on my way home >=[ I ended up buying a salad and went to target. I got home and was sooo tired. NO JOKE.
I waited till Monica texted me saying that I was able to pick her and David up. So when I got there I talked with Jennifer and Kyle! I miss those two! Esp. the colorguard! D: Well we practiced at my house Monica's solo for Thursday which wasn't so bad. We did enjoy reading essays though XD hahahahahaha oh golly. I took Monica and David home, but David wanted me to chill for awhile which didn't turn out to be awhile. I ended up falling asleep and driving around for fun! Lols. So much for doing anything lmaos! I don't regret it though... it was fun hanging out and we did get onto good terms today. =]
Nonetheless another good day =]
Gilbert and I did this weird driving thing in the morning that ended up proceeding well! I got to school and I was so tired. Communications class was dope though. We had a random debate on random topics. The most hilarious topic was the guy groups, "What is the best sex position" LMAO Man their debate was hilarious! Mines was People should all have bf/gf's and I won! =] hahaha heck yesss! Amy and I were nervous in the beginning but then it was all easy! =] I can't believe I did well on my speech except that one mistake on my outline D: Blarghs. Oh well. Anywho, I didn't go to math cause I had a doctors appointment, that ended up being cancelled on my way home >=[ I ended up buying a salad and went to target. I got home and was sooo tired. NO JOKE.
I waited till Monica texted me saying that I was able to pick her and David up. So when I got there I talked with Jennifer and Kyle! I miss those two! Esp. the colorguard! D: Well we practiced at my house Monica's solo for Thursday which wasn't so bad. We did enjoy reading essays though XD hahahahahaha oh golly. I took Monica and David home, but David wanted me to chill for awhile which didn't turn out to be awhile. I ended up falling asleep and driving around for fun! Lols. So much for doing anything lmaos! I don't regret it though... it was fun hanging out and we did get onto good terms today. =]
Nonetheless another good day =]
Monday, February 23, 2009
I Can Live Without You
Today went well!
I conversated in the morning with Gilbert more than usual BUT it's okay! Lols... after I knocked out till I got to school =] In English I just turned in my work and did the class discussion! I love participating! I think I'm a nerd D: In Philosophy Bridgette was sad that our seats were gone again so we sat apart once more. Oh well class was fun. Last math. Easy. =]
When I got home Monica and I went to Panera Bread for lunch! My goodness was it quite refreshing! It was more amusing hearing Monica tell me how excited she was =] We talked about so much and then we saw Ms. Zelnick LMAO interesting... no really I did enjoy how it was so chill and such a conversational environment.
I TAUGHT MONICA HOW TO:
Bend Your Knees
We rented DVDs and then watched them. First we watched, Diary of a Mad Black Women then Just Friends! It was hilarious! Then baked brownies! =] YUMMY!
*btw I should slap your face for always trying to hide shit. 'tsk tsk tsk' We've talked bout it before. I suppose nothing really changes eh?*
Regardless of that mess, I am still happy with my life and I am enjoying every aspect as much as I can. I guess this whole time I was seeking help from others, but the first step is to help yourself. =] Nothing is in my control and I am moving on to find the right path. Just because I am happy doesn't mean I have my life back together and all, it just means I know what to do and slowly putting it back. If the pieces don't fit anymore, then I can always fill it in with something new. I'm not rushing to be happy, because I am still learning about life and myself.
I think I want to enhance everything and create a change that reflects inside and out! Though I love myself the way I am I guess I can start up on something new-ish. I believe I thought about it a lot but is hard to keep consistent cause of school, but I think I can do it this time =]
P.S.
Daddy I miss you.
I pray for you as much as I can and I'm being strong like you taught me. Life is hard without you, but I have to continue moving forward with my life to fulfill the dreams you wanted me to succeed. I know I'm not the brightest child, but I do my best to get to the light. I know that if you never passed I would never have to face all these trials that are being thrown at me. Monica is right though, God never gives us too much for us to handle cause he knows whats best. I miss you though and I love you. I just hope you never forgot that because you haven't visited me lately. I heard you played pool with David =] I hope you're okay. It's almost 6 months.. May you rest in peace.
Love Always,
Valerie C. de los Santos
I conversated in the morning with Gilbert more than usual BUT it's okay! Lols... after I knocked out till I got to school =] In English I just turned in my work and did the class discussion! I love participating! I think I'm a nerd D: In Philosophy Bridgette was sad that our seats were gone again so we sat apart once more. Oh well class was fun. Last math. Easy. =]
When I got home Monica and I went to Panera Bread for lunch! My goodness was it quite refreshing! It was more amusing hearing Monica tell me how excited she was =] We talked about so much and then we saw Ms. Zelnick LMAO interesting... no really I did enjoy how it was so chill and such a conversational environment.
I TAUGHT MONICA HOW TO:
Bend Your Knees
We rented DVDs and then watched them. First we watched, Diary of a Mad Black Women then Just Friends! It was hilarious! Then baked brownies! =] YUMMY!
*btw I should slap your face for always trying to hide shit. 'tsk tsk tsk' We've talked bout it before. I suppose nothing really changes eh?*
Regardless of that mess, I am still happy with my life and I am enjoying every aspect as much as I can. I guess this whole time I was seeking help from others, but the first step is to help yourself. =] Nothing is in my control and I am moving on to find the right path. Just because I am happy doesn't mean I have my life back together and all, it just means I know what to do and slowly putting it back. If the pieces don't fit anymore, then I can always fill it in with something new. I'm not rushing to be happy, because I am still learning about life and myself.
I think I want to enhance everything and create a change that reflects inside and out! Though I love myself the way I am I guess I can start up on something new-ish. I believe I thought about it a lot but is hard to keep consistent cause of school, but I think I can do it this time =]
P.S.
Daddy I miss you.
I pray for you as much as I can and I'm being strong like you taught me. Life is hard without you, but I have to continue moving forward with my life to fulfill the dreams you wanted me to succeed. I know I'm not the brightest child, but I do my best to get to the light. I know that if you never passed I would never have to face all these trials that are being thrown at me. Monica is right though, God never gives us too much for us to handle cause he knows whats best. I miss you though and I love you. I just hope you never forgot that because you haven't visited me lately. I heard you played pool with David =] I hope you're okay. It's almost 6 months.. May you rest in peace.
Love Always,
Valerie C. de los Santos
Sunday, February 22, 2009
peace be still
hahaha today is fine. =]
i don't like my homework, but it's getting done fa sho!
i'm surprised my focus paper is easier than i thought!!
Hello, I Miss You
i don't like my homework, but it's getting done fa sho!
i'm surprised my focus paper is easier than i thought!!
Hello, I Miss You
What Is Love?
The retreat at St. Martha's was pretty cool. I always tend to learn a lot at these stuff and I love it! They always find a way to grab my attention and base it to our own lives so it'll be easier to understand. Yuhp, Mon's sang with us again which was funny when we made our 'tree branches' you had to be there to understand. Jesmond came to see what was left. After we left, got boba went to my house watched some stuff. Then they jetted. I took the pleasure in napping for 5 hours. I woke up and watched, "The Diary of a Mad Black Women." I tend to realize a lot of Terry Perry movies are about forgivness or learning some sort of lesson. I love it though! =] After I knocked out like the fool I am. I need to do some homework today after church which I will gladly do.
-1 essay 4
-1 revise essay 3
-work on focus paper
* I am enjoying where this is all heading
-1 essay 4
-1 revise essay 3
-work on focus paper
* I am enjoying where this is all heading
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Mark 2: 1-12
Song: Switchfoot - Dare You To Move
Morning was pretty cool cause all I did was sleep. I woke up and took my sister to the doctors for a bit. After that, she grabbed some food and headed home. Around 1:30 I went to Nogales to ask Mr. Woodside for help WHICH really did =] I found what I needed. Hm... After I chilled with Woodside and some guy and kept making jokes and laughter which was cool. Then I stopped to the choir room to snag Monica. For awhile I watched the colorguard stretch which I really miss D: We got food and watched I Now Pronouce You Chuck and Larry.. *pokes fingers together* ;] After starbucks and to the prayer meeting. I was pretty wired! I enjoyed the fact Monica sang with us even though she was like o.O half the time! LMAO so we heard Gerard sing for the first time, but what Monica said to him before he sang was CLASSIC! You got balls. Jesmond magically appeared during the gospel reading. I must admit I had no idea what the reading was about until brother alvin explained it and tried to get us to get a deeper meaning. I won't lie once I found out what it was I was really touched. I always find the gospel relating to my significant life. I've found myself more content and I say its because of that. I think I am well on my way in discovering myself and my faith. I have hope and faith again and it feels good. Lol I wanted to speak for our group after I figured out the meaning kinda that... when I tried to explain it... I got tounge tied! "So... if I had to pin-pound... I mean pin-point.." Jesmond spoke for us instead and it was funny what he first said... "I'M ON FIRE TOO! spiritually." lols... after we went to movies! it was hilarious I loved it. Stupid preview though... scared me so badly I dropped my hot dog on me... D: Bwahahah.. s'all good. Jesmond took us back home and I took Monica home. Tis all =]
Today we'll see what happens. I might help out at St. Martha's =]
Morning was pretty cool cause all I did was sleep. I woke up and took my sister to the doctors for a bit. After that, she grabbed some food and headed home. Around 1:30 I went to Nogales to ask Mr. Woodside for help WHICH really did =] I found what I needed. Hm... After I chilled with Woodside and some guy and kept making jokes and laughter which was cool. Then I stopped to the choir room to snag Monica. For awhile I watched the colorguard stretch which I really miss D: We got food and watched I Now Pronouce You Chuck and Larry.. *pokes fingers together* ;] After starbucks and to the prayer meeting. I was pretty wired! I enjoyed the fact Monica sang with us even though she was like o.O half the time! LMAO so we heard Gerard sing for the first time, but what Monica said to him before he sang was CLASSIC! You got balls. Jesmond magically appeared during the gospel reading. I must admit I had no idea what the reading was about until brother alvin explained it and tried to get us to get a deeper meaning. I won't lie once I found out what it was I was really touched. I always find the gospel relating to my significant life. I've found myself more content and I say its because of that. I think I am well on my way in discovering myself and my faith. I have hope and faith again and it feels good. Lol I wanted to speak for our group after I figured out the meaning kinda that... when I tried to explain it... I got tounge tied! "So... if I had to pin-pound... I mean pin-point.." Jesmond spoke for us instead and it was funny what he first said... "I'M ON FIRE TOO! spiritually." lols... after we went to movies! it was hilarious I loved it. Stupid preview though... scared me so badly I dropped my hot dog on me... D: Bwahahah.. s'all good. Jesmond took us back home and I took Monica home. Tis all =]
Today we'll see what happens. I might help out at St. Martha's =]
Friday, February 20, 2009
Changes for the Better
Song: Adele - Make You Feel My Love
What can I say?
I believe once I told Monica everything I felt and how I wanted to make a change... everything has been looking up! I mean its only 2 days, but I can say it's been the best 2 days I've had in forever! I've been seeing Xanthe more lately too which is a pretty tight feeling again! XD I feel more sane whatsoever and I'm glad I still have my friends. I do believe I've been distant with others, but I guess just finding my way in the dark isn't too bad when I have a candle with me. It shows I'm not alone completely.
I don't remember much but I did get a haircut and my nails did! Monica even dyed my hair which was pretty fun/funny =]
Today:
I can say that it went well. Comm's class was pretty chill as usual and I dressed up today for once for school and I did enjoy the compliments. I suppose its because I don't dress up well for school cause I don't really care how I look! Break was fun chillin' with Niko since all I did was my math then kept eating D: Hm.. Math went by faster than usual and quiz was easy/funny everyone didn't know how to do the first problem but I realized it was easier than I thought. I came home and talked with Sia for a bit and then went to Nogales. I enjoyed seeing old faces! =] It wasn't as bad as I thought it would've been. I talked to a few people for awhile and then watched them sing in the Little Theater. Once it ended I talked with Aquino about what to do my speech on for Comm's since I really needed help. I suppose I have to ask Woodside to see which of the choices suits me. I took Jesmond and Fawzi home =] once I arrived home I napped till Monica texted me which happened to be when Flapjack came on! XD Later Xanthe came to my house and needed me to drive her stepmom's car home from whereever I went. So I drove the freeway home alone! =] XANTHE'S SISTER IS SO FUNNY DRUNK I LOVE IT! Some shit that happened seemed painful but whoa! It topped my night for sure! Rb, Nigel, Roland, Dusty, and Amanda came over too and saw what happened bwahhaha! =]
Too be honest I am enjoying my happiness. Though, I may come across some issues along the way I think I can over come it all with help or alone. I feel like this is going to be a better start not only for me, but for 'us'. It isn't easy for me to do, but I think I can make it. I have faith and hope again. =]
I guess once you fall all you need to do is get up and try again when you're ready.
What can I say?
I believe once I told Monica everything I felt and how I wanted to make a change... everything has been looking up! I mean its only 2 days, but I can say it's been the best 2 days I've had in forever! I've been seeing Xanthe more lately too which is a pretty tight feeling again! XD I feel more sane whatsoever and I'm glad I still have my friends. I do believe I've been distant with others, but I guess just finding my way in the dark isn't too bad when I have a candle with me. It shows I'm not alone completely.
I don't remember much but I did get a haircut and my nails did! Monica even dyed my hair which was pretty fun/funny =]
Today:
I can say that it went well. Comm's class was pretty chill as usual and I dressed up today for once for school and I did enjoy the compliments. I suppose its because I don't dress up well for school cause I don't really care how I look! Break was fun chillin' with Niko since all I did was my math then kept eating D: Hm.. Math went by faster than usual and quiz was easy/funny everyone didn't know how to do the first problem but I realized it was easier than I thought. I came home and talked with Sia for a bit and then went to Nogales. I enjoyed seeing old faces! =] It wasn't as bad as I thought it would've been. I talked to a few people for awhile and then watched them sing in the Little Theater. Once it ended I talked with Aquino about what to do my speech on for Comm's since I really needed help. I suppose I have to ask Woodside to see which of the choices suits me. I took Jesmond and Fawzi home =] once I arrived home I napped till Monica texted me which happened to be when Flapjack came on! XD Later Xanthe came to my house and needed me to drive her stepmom's car home from whereever I went. So I drove the freeway home alone! =] XANTHE'S SISTER IS SO FUNNY DRUNK I LOVE IT! Some shit that happened seemed painful but whoa! It topped my night for sure! Rb, Nigel, Roland, Dusty, and Amanda came over too and saw what happened bwahhaha! =]
Too be honest I am enjoying my happiness. Though, I may come across some issues along the way I think I can over come it all with help or alone. I feel like this is going to be a better start not only for me, but for 'us'. It isn't easy for me to do, but I think I can make it. I have faith and hope again. =]
I guess once you fall all you need to do is get up and try again when you're ready.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
out with the old. in with the new. starting from scratch
Okay I shall back track a bit.
On Friday I don’t really remember much. I do recall going to the prayer meeting and stuff with Monica Jesmond and Jeska. It was pretty fun I won’t lie. For once we all enjoyed hanging out after the prayer meeting cause we were just listening to Jesmond and Sonny sing and play the guitars and all. After my prayer meeting friends took me out to in-n-out to celebrate my birthday early. Lol lots of jokes and fun at the same time! The fortune cookie was quite funny though and everyone else thought so too. Oh the irony. ANYWHO we were there till 12 and since everyone’s phone had a different time I was told happy birthday like 204982093 times. I loved it
Saturday was obviously my birthday. Bwahaha. I can clearly say it was cutes what Lalique did. She came over to my house all kinds of dressed up with balloons, roses, and a big cookie! ‘yum’ anywhoooo! I was all gross looking. After I picked up Xanthe and we went to target. For once my Best Friend of 9 years forgot my birthday! I wasn’t mad but I found it so hilarious! =] Then I went out to lunch with my family. More than anything I was miserable and stuck on my phone the whole time. I was angry and shiz, but don’t ask why. I did wish you went. Bloop. So I picked up Monica, Jesmond, and Fawzi and stuff and we headed to the Griffith Observatory! Riding in Den’s car is always hilarious. Rachel and Den kept making jokes about random people driving or walking by. “Fawnzi” Oh man… Den kept messing up his name. Bloop. Once we got there we had to wait for the trolly which took FOREVER. We stood in the freezing ass weather for 2 hours!! I won’t lie though, we had a lot of inside jokes that kept us sane. I loved that stupid dancing sign! =]] Oh yeah XD. Then once we got on the trolly like, there were a lot of hefty people in there that one side was tipping over. It was really awkward actually hahaha. Monica and I kept talking about stuffers and stuff. Once we got to the top I was stunned about how beautiful the view was. The lights of L.A were so cool! We walked around on the inside of the place and roamed the buildings like nothing. We went to the top of the building and oh man I loved it. Extremely breath taking. We soon found the giftshop and it was so damn expensive! ARGH! Oh well I got a shirt and 2 mood rings =] The planetarium show was pretty tight. I loved how the four of us were texting each other right next to one another! =] Bwahahhaa. After…. We went to Chinatown for dinner which was cool. Jesmond and Fawzi were funny trying to get food. They knocked over their cups then were trying to toss noodles onto the plates. Once we got home I was extremely tired and took them home. David asked me if I can stop by for the last 30 minutes of my birthday and so I did. We watched the insult dog for an hour which was pretty bomb. At the same time I was pondering a lot of thoughts through my head. Over all I enjoyed my birthday disregarding a lot of things that went wrong.
Sunday. I went to church with Jesmond as usual and I think I annoyed the guy next to me cause I kept singing all the church songs! D: After that we got boba and watched Serendipity at my house. Chilled for awhile and then I took him home and hung out with Monica. I used her computer and saw her eat stairs. Quite enjoyable. Then we had pho and bought my cousin the Left 4 Dead game. Then we had a lil adventure into Fresh and Easy. After we parted when I took her to Blockbuster to meet up with Mervin, Galo, and David. I was just chillin at home afterwards. Yuhps!
Monday. School was freaking cold. The rain was like pwning me but nothing can get in the way of my layers of jackets. I enjoyed school only because my teachers let me out early. It’s so rare for them sometimes to do so, but yuhp! After I went to Davids house to give him something. We ended up talking about stuff and then falling asleep as usual. I just chilled at his house all day since I didn’t have much to do that night. I love his mom’s cooking! x] bwahahha it was yummy! Anywho. After we were trying to figure out what to do all day, so we just laid down for a really long time. David trippin out from boreduhm was quite… funny to watch cause he was extremely random. Bloop. Once his brother came home we started to play wii boxing, which I really suck at. I think the only time I owned was when Alyssa covered Davids eyes so I can win! At golf I was meh. I did pretty well, but I still sucked. Bowling was really fun! I think it was so much fun cause David and I were competing with each other so much! I never thought I’d be giving 374982374 high fives in one night. Lol his dad started to play and I was like wow hes not that bad! Then david had to do homework and stuff so I started to play House of the Dead 2 with his brother! LOL they kept screaming when I would shoot the towns people on accident! Bwahahaha! After his bro and lyss left we just chilled for a lil bit more then I had to jet cause my mom kept calling me to go home. I pretty much spent my day at davids house and it was fun. Thanks man =]
On Friday I don’t really remember much. I do recall going to the prayer meeting and stuff with Monica Jesmond and Jeska. It was pretty fun I won’t lie. For once we all enjoyed hanging out after the prayer meeting cause we were just listening to Jesmond and Sonny sing and play the guitars and all. After my prayer meeting friends took me out to in-n-out to celebrate my birthday early. Lol lots of jokes and fun at the same time! The fortune cookie was quite funny though and everyone else thought so too. Oh the irony. ANYWHO we were there till 12 and since everyone’s phone had a different time I was told happy birthday like 204982093 times. I loved it
Saturday was obviously my birthday. Bwahaha. I can clearly say it was cutes what Lalique did. She came over to my house all kinds of dressed up with balloons, roses, and a big cookie! ‘yum’ anywhoooo! I was all gross looking. After I picked up Xanthe and we went to target. For once my Best Friend of 9 years forgot my birthday! I wasn’t mad but I found it so hilarious! =] Then I went out to lunch with my family. More than anything I was miserable and stuck on my phone the whole time. I was angry and shiz, but don’t ask why. I did wish you went. Bloop. So I picked up Monica, Jesmond, and Fawzi and stuff and we headed to the Griffith Observatory! Riding in Den’s car is always hilarious. Rachel and Den kept making jokes about random people driving or walking by. “Fawnzi” Oh man… Den kept messing up his name. Bloop. Once we got there we had to wait for the trolly which took FOREVER. We stood in the freezing ass weather for 2 hours!! I won’t lie though, we had a lot of inside jokes that kept us sane. I loved that stupid dancing sign! =]] Oh yeah XD. Then once we got on the trolly like, there were a lot of hefty people in there that one side was tipping over. It was really awkward actually hahaha. Monica and I kept talking about stuffers and stuff. Once we got to the top I was stunned about how beautiful the view was. The lights of L.A were so cool! We walked around on the inside of the place and roamed the buildings like nothing. We went to the top of the building and oh man I loved it. Extremely breath taking. We soon found the giftshop and it was so damn expensive! ARGH! Oh well I got a shirt and 2 mood rings =] The planetarium show was pretty tight. I loved how the four of us were texting each other right next to one another! =] Bwahahhaa. After…. We went to Chinatown for dinner which was cool. Jesmond and Fawzi were funny trying to get food. They knocked over their cups then were trying to toss noodles onto the plates. Once we got home I was extremely tired and took them home. David asked me if I can stop by for the last 30 minutes of my birthday and so I did. We watched the insult dog for an hour which was pretty bomb. At the same time I was pondering a lot of thoughts through my head. Over all I enjoyed my birthday disregarding a lot of things that went wrong.
Sunday. I went to church with Jesmond as usual and I think I annoyed the guy next to me cause I kept singing all the church songs! D: After that we got boba and watched Serendipity at my house. Chilled for awhile and then I took him home and hung out with Monica. I used her computer and saw her eat stairs. Quite enjoyable. Then we had pho and bought my cousin the Left 4 Dead game. Then we had a lil adventure into Fresh and Easy. After we parted when I took her to Blockbuster to meet up with Mervin, Galo, and David. I was just chillin at home afterwards. Yuhps!
Monday. School was freaking cold. The rain was like pwning me but nothing can get in the way of my layers of jackets. I enjoyed school only because my teachers let me out early. It’s so rare for them sometimes to do so, but yuhp! After I went to Davids house to give him something. We ended up talking about stuff and then falling asleep as usual. I just chilled at his house all day since I didn’t have much to do that night. I love his mom’s cooking! x] bwahahha it was yummy! Anywho. After we were trying to figure out what to do all day, so we just laid down for a really long time. David trippin out from boreduhm was quite… funny to watch cause he was extremely random. Bloop. Once his brother came home we started to play wii boxing, which I really suck at. I think the only time I owned was when Alyssa covered Davids eyes so I can win! At golf I was meh. I did pretty well, but I still sucked. Bowling was really fun! I think it was so much fun cause David and I were competing with each other so much! I never thought I’d be giving 374982374 high fives in one night. Lol his dad started to play and I was like wow hes not that bad! Then david had to do homework and stuff so I started to play House of the Dead 2 with his brother! LOL they kept screaming when I would shoot the towns people on accident! Bwahahaha! After his bro and lyss left we just chilled for a lil bit more then I had to jet cause my mom kept calling me to go home. I pretty much spent my day at davids house and it was fun. Thanks man =]
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Wearing Thin...
I'm starting to believe that my patience is starting to wear thin. I'm on a strong border of losing it. I feel like so much in my life is collapsing as I try dodging every collision of problems approaching me. I know what happened and is happening is starting to suck and the look in Kyle's eyes hurt me so badly. Seeing all that pain and disappointment. I'm trying to get back on my feet, but I feel so guilty for everything I am doing. It's starting to become harder for me to decipher the right from wrong. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Well... I don't know. I'm tired and exhausted again. I keep crying because I'm so upset and disappointed in myself. I am in constant worry and pleading to God. I'm so confused with this world. I hope we're okay. I hope we make it out strong. I hope I find my way. I hope I know what I am looking for. All I can do is hope and pray. What do I do? He says stay happy, think positive, don't worry too much, and we'll get through this; Do you believe me? I say yes, but sometimes I feel like saying no because we will never know till we get there. I seek for advice and answers, but all I receive are more questions and fear. I've been walking down this road alone for awhile, but some that have lost their ways has always come by to take a stroll with me. In the end, we end up parting ways and I am again left alone. It isn't easier, and the road is just so bumpy. Nothing seems to be familiar to me anymore. I used to know the answers to the questions people asked, but now I am speechless. I guess what I am trying to say is...
I don't know where I am heading anymore.
I don't know where I am heading anymore.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I Messed Up.
Yesterday everything just kept falling apart. I needed to go somewhere with David, but if you understand Murphy's Law then you know what I mean. Everything was just going terrible and all off plan that I just wanted to cry. By the time I actually got to where I needed to be it was closed. I just felt like crap knowing it's importance to my situation, but whatever I suppose. The rest of my afternoon just prolonged with the same emotion. Justin came over and I talked to him for awhile because I just had too many problems all at once to deal with. As time neared I picked up people to go to Sia's house and all that. The rain was terrible, but I got through it. I hated the fact that there was some silent tension that was always bothering me that whole time. I don't like the fact where people would just do something, then something else. Keeping everything all secretive and shit. Well fuck it at least I knew where everything else was heading. I won't lie. I enjoyed seeing all my friends I haven't seen in forever and I was better off not drinking, but I took some (with my own rule of why I did it). I guess as I was trying to rekindle my relationship with my friends and updating them, I completely got bit in the ass big time. It was really hard for me to control my emotions. I should've listened to Jesmond, but there was an importance that I needed to follow. I did wait it out, but I guess switching shouldn't of had occured. I was fine and well focused, just lost. Till then. I couldn't really say anything cause of my major shock I had. I wanted to cry so badly and I didn't even realize how badly I was holding Mervin's arm and David's shoulder. I can't completely get mad at anyone because some of it was my fault. It was my mistake and I have to learn from it. I try hard to be a good host, a good friend, and a good person in general but I did mess up... and I am sorry. It was all so terrible. I can honestly say that I am too ashamed to even have them see me again and for now I feel like I want to keep my distance. Maybe if I become invisible for awhile can help me fix myself up. Though I know my birthday is coming up, everything now is just whatever. I will figure this all out and get my thoughts completely focused.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Y'Know What I'm Sayin?!
HmMm! SO I woke up this morning... with major cramps and I had to use the restroom which apparently is now gone. That is because it is getting remodeled and stuff like that. HmMm. I woke Monica up at 9 am I suppose because she didn't go to school lmao. But at like 1130 we went to Aloha BBQ to eat Lunch. LOLS.. "Wow Val you really do look like shit" hahahahahaha Thats what I get for starting my period and being sick at the same time! D: bwahaha. I took her to school after we ate and then I just kind of knocked out for a bit on and off... I felt so terrible. I was supposed to go to Mr. Woodsides class today but I was just feeling like crap. After awhile Monica and I went to the mall around 4 and we ran into EJ Nikki and Agatha. It was interesting since I don't really see them around and I was like HMMM they look quite familiar from a distance. Oh well Monica helped me pick a belt to the shirt I bought today! I LOVE it! No joke. Wootz! I need to fold clothes. Anywho. Monica was at my house for awhile and then we headed to Erica's dinner. I got to admit it was pretty damn fun! XD I love how it was kind of a mini reunion and all the jokes and gossip being told around I LOVE IT! I think after I ate I started to act weird. Oh well at least Monica went along with it and danced with me too! =] AND I MADE A JOKE THAT LASTED! WOOT! Monica and I kept high fiving each other Bwahahah! I kept playing with the candle for some reason I couldn't help it. I taught Ace and Monica how to "play with fire" lmaos Rainier was so ticked off at the waitress because we didn't get our menus OR drinks! S'all goood s'all good =]. Anywho!!! After I had to go to Davids to take care of some business and after that we played wii kind of. Technically we were watching some stuff but I though it was quite dandy. I was there for quite a bit but I found it pretty chill. I hope tomorrow goes well....
Friday, February 6, 2009
80/20
Well I don't really remember much from this week except hang out with Monica and school work. I do also remember help feeding the homeless which was pretty bomb tastic hahaha.
Mmm today things were pretty weird. It was like a mixture of emotions. I felt confused in the morning then sick at the same time. Stupid dream in a dream in a dream. After awhile... I just wanted to go home. Hanging with Rainier and Niko again was pretty chill. Rainier and I were just taking mass pictures while Niko was studying his butt off. Bwahaha. Math was chill and I got out early. Bus ride was alright. Got stressed and stranded in the rain. Did Monica's choir final which went well! and then... chilled a lot. Jesmond and Monica and I got boba and foods. Monica and I watched Why Did I Get Married. Good shit right there know what I'm sayin? YUHP! Sorry Monica I made you watch a lot of random things. I think my day was kind of off I didn't have much of an entertaining thingy to persue the enjoyment lmao. S'all good. I'm so worried and stressing. BLAH
Mmm today things were pretty weird. It was like a mixture of emotions. I felt confused in the morning then sick at the same time. Stupid dream in a dream in a dream. After awhile... I just wanted to go home. Hanging with Rainier and Niko again was pretty chill. Rainier and I were just taking mass pictures while Niko was studying his butt off. Bwahaha. Math was chill and I got out early. Bus ride was alright. Got stressed and stranded in the rain. Did Monica's choir final which went well! and then... chilled a lot. Jesmond and Monica and I got boba and foods. Monica and I watched Why Did I Get Married. Good shit right there know what I'm sayin? YUHP! Sorry Monica I made you watch a lot of random things. I think my day was kind of off I didn't have much of an entertaining thingy to persue the enjoyment lmao. S'all good. I'm so worried and stressing. BLAH
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Ramble Ramble Ramble
You know... after reading Rainiers blog it kind of encouraged me to just... 'write' things out. Not specifically on me, but people in general or certain individuals.
It is odd seeing how much people are suddenly changing quite fast, but I am also an influential person who kind of allows things to happen. I don't really try to stop anybody in their actions because I know its their choice and it will be their lesson to learn. It's starting to become the small little things that are just sticking out that get on my nerves and I just think people should really think about what they are doing. (No I'm not talking about anyone in particular, just the things I've been hearing around lately which is becoming lame.) Anywho, after talking to Lalique that one day I kind of hung out with her she brought it up too. I feel that I've been more self-conscious about me and what I am going through I don't really focus on the people around me. Thats why lately I've been understanding the person I am, and why I am acting the way I do. Now that my focus has switched to everyone around me, I am starting to think I don't know anyone anymore unless they talk to me. I'm not trying to sound 'Miss Grown Up' and all, but goodness people need to suck it up because there are worse things in life and you shouldn't take life for granted. Esp. for those shadey assholes out there... I don't know what is up with you but I just want to slap you right across the face. When Rainier stated that he has changed, I know I have changed too. Not because he said it, but because I do feel/see it. My perspective in life and goals have completely changed and my perception of people have either weakend or grew stronger. I'm not trying to be a preacher, but people should snap back into reality and see what is really important. AND I know some of you reading this may think I am contradicting my point seeing how I am struggling through so much and how I portray my own actions, but I do know what I am doing and how I am feeling. I'm not confused. Yah maybe I do have problems in my life, but if you really think about it don't you dare think yours can compare to mine. Many of you know my issues out there, but you don't see me doing what you're doing anymore. I'm slowly changing and maybe for the better. If you want to become a complete idiot in life and a big ass go ahead because its YOUR life.
Lmao I hope you enjoyed this one Monica! I know you know who some parts go out to babygirl lmao.
It is odd seeing how much people are suddenly changing quite fast, but I am also an influential person who kind of allows things to happen. I don't really try to stop anybody in their actions because I know its their choice and it will be their lesson to learn. It's starting to become the small little things that are just sticking out that get on my nerves and I just think people should really think about what they are doing. (No I'm not talking about anyone in particular, just the things I've been hearing around lately which is becoming lame.) Anywho, after talking to Lalique that one day I kind of hung out with her she brought it up too. I feel that I've been more self-conscious about me and what I am going through I don't really focus on the people around me. Thats why lately I've been understanding the person I am, and why I am acting the way I do. Now that my focus has switched to everyone around me, I am starting to think I don't know anyone anymore unless they talk to me. I'm not trying to sound 'Miss Grown Up' and all, but goodness people need to suck it up because there are worse things in life and you shouldn't take life for granted. Esp. for those shadey assholes out there... I don't know what is up with you but I just want to slap you right across the face. When Rainier stated that he has changed, I know I have changed too. Not because he said it, but because I do feel/see it. My perspective in life and goals have completely changed and my perception of people have either weakend or grew stronger. I'm not trying to be a preacher, but people should snap back into reality and see what is really important. AND I know some of you reading this may think I am contradicting my point seeing how I am struggling through so much and how I portray my own actions, but I do know what I am doing and how I am feeling. I'm not confused. Yah maybe I do have problems in my life, but if you really think about it don't you dare think yours can compare to mine. Many of you know my issues out there, but you don't see me doing what you're doing anymore. I'm slowly changing and maybe for the better. If you want to become a complete idiot in life and a big ass go ahead because its YOUR life.
Lmao I hope you enjoyed this one Monica! I know you know who some parts go out to babygirl lmao.
Monday, February 2, 2009
LOST.
Sorry I haven't written in here for quite some time... my internet has been lame and hasn't let me use its internet D: Very depressing.
Friday: Well I know I did a lot of cleaning in my room and I even washed my car. I did a few errands knocked out. After I went to Nogales to visit Mr. Woodside! I find it funny how David didn't see me with my ninja skill, but I guess that means my skills did work. Mr. Woodside and I were catching up on things and cracking up on jokes. I am glad that I am able to talk to him about anything because it is easier to talk to him about it. Idk why but it is! I was supposed to hang with Fawzi at 330 but I ended up leaving at 415! I felt so terrible because I was so caught up catching up on some thangs. After Fawzi and I did go to Mc Dees and talked a bit! =] Oh how I love and miss him. After we picked up Joshy and headed to my house so I can practice on make up stuff. Then Joshy and I started to catch up on things because I haven't seen or talked to her in forever! D: Lols then Lalique came and I did her make up to practice and Monica and Jeska came a bit after her. I found it quite unusual having a bunch of girls in my room and a guy because I'm used to having a bunch of guys and two girls (monica and i). After we took Joshy home picked up CJ and headed to Church. Prayer Meeting was fun and I didn't do too bad on my solo. Once it ended we stayed for 30 minutes and jetted to my house. Lets say being the care taker isn't so bad. BUT Monica did end my night quite interesting XD
Saturday
Well this was kind of a short but long day. It was kind of hard having a big scheduled time gap between Lalique and Joshy's make up time because I would just lie in my room waiting for like 2 hours after. S'all good everyone ended quite lovely. Joshy gave me the best back rub that I haven't gotten in forever! It helped me feel better cause I felt like crap after discussing something with Monica. BUT ITS OKAY. Monica and I headed to "Brea" but apparently having no internet and bad directions took me to Chino hahahahahaha. I won't lie it wasn't that bad until Carbon Canyon Road. That shit is scary to take BUT fun! Monica kept pointing at things I couldn't look at!! D: S'all good! Eventually after being lost for an hour and a half we got to Brea and ate at BJ's! =] It wasn't as bad as I thought driving freeway and I felt very comfortable on the way home. Monica and I chilled in my room later that night just kind of talking and chillin' and then messed around taking pictures then taking her home. I was surprised that David even called me that night since I don't really hear from him anymore, but it was quite pleasent.
Sunday
I did a lot of things on this day. I had to do some errands and then I went out with Monica. We wanted to print out pictures but nothing went as planned so I was quite irritated that I wasn't able to do that. BUT we went to Mega Video and rented 3 Dvds and got food supplies. We headed to Davids house to practice Monica's song for her choir final! It wasn't as bad as I thought, but I did wish that I had my computer to listen to the parts I kept messing up on. S'all good though. We started to watched Rent and stuff and just chilled on the couches.. Then we picked up Mervin and resumed to our first activity. Lols. It was pretty chill. David gave me expired medication for my illness which is funny to think about now, but at the moment I was about to slaughter him. I had a mean ol' headache and was majorly drowsy. After we watched Havoc which made everyone laugh, but David's mom was cooking so we would have to change some parts of it. Soon we ate some awesome bbq ribs and played some videogames! Dynasty Warriors is always fun to me! =] Love it. Playing with Monica is quite fun though! She was better than Mervin who died really fast while I was all into it! >:[ After we made pazookies and ate it. LOL yuhp just like that. After we wanted to do something else so we went to Shadow Oak and chilled for awhile. We both split up so I was with David the whole time. We were able to talk about a lot of things and kind of made a lot of closure. Though I am still hurt, I know we are in good terms. I love that fool. Even though we're like Best Friends and not taking that word for granted, I am glad I can still be comfortable around him. I was able to make him understand the way I act and etc towards him and he never understood why in the beginning. BUT NOW IT MAKES SENSE. I hate crying around him because I feel like a big wuss but oh well! I made a joke and he actually liked it, though it implicated me agreeing that he was turning into an ass. Our days when we see each other usually goes UP and then DOWN and then back UP and then DOWN... Over and over again, eventually our rollercoaster will stop. Yeah, the fog in our air is still there, but its better than it was before. This is where my road is starting to become difficult and I have to be stronger to get to the other side. I know I whine a lot, but as long as I get by is all that matters to me right now. I love you, & Monica lmao. But no serious.
Friday: Well I know I did a lot of cleaning in my room and I even washed my car. I did a few errands knocked out. After I went to Nogales to visit Mr. Woodside! I find it funny how David didn't see me with my ninja skill, but I guess that means my skills did work. Mr. Woodside and I were catching up on things and cracking up on jokes. I am glad that I am able to talk to him about anything because it is easier to talk to him about it. Idk why but it is! I was supposed to hang with Fawzi at 330 but I ended up leaving at 415! I felt so terrible because I was so caught up catching up on some thangs. After Fawzi and I did go to Mc Dees and talked a bit! =] Oh how I love and miss him. After we picked up Joshy and headed to my house so I can practice on make up stuff. Then Joshy and I started to catch up on things because I haven't seen or talked to her in forever! D: Lols then Lalique came and I did her make up to practice and Monica and Jeska came a bit after her. I found it quite unusual having a bunch of girls in my room and a guy because I'm used to having a bunch of guys and two girls (monica and i). After we took Joshy home picked up CJ and headed to Church. Prayer Meeting was fun and I didn't do too bad on my solo. Once it ended we stayed for 30 minutes and jetted to my house. Lets say being the care taker isn't so bad. BUT Monica did end my night quite interesting XD
Saturday
Well this was kind of a short but long day. It was kind of hard having a big scheduled time gap between Lalique and Joshy's make up time because I would just lie in my room waiting for like 2 hours after. S'all good everyone ended quite lovely. Joshy gave me the best back rub that I haven't gotten in forever! It helped me feel better cause I felt like crap after discussing something with Monica. BUT ITS OKAY. Monica and I headed to "Brea" but apparently having no internet and bad directions took me to Chino hahahahahaha. I won't lie it wasn't that bad until Carbon Canyon Road. That shit is scary to take BUT fun! Monica kept pointing at things I couldn't look at!! D: S'all good! Eventually after being lost for an hour and a half we got to Brea and ate at BJ's! =] It wasn't as bad as I thought driving freeway and I felt very comfortable on the way home. Monica and I chilled in my room later that night just kind of talking and chillin' and then messed around taking pictures then taking her home. I was surprised that David even called me that night since I don't really hear from him anymore, but it was quite pleasent.
Sunday
I did a lot of things on this day. I had to do some errands and then I went out with Monica. We wanted to print out pictures but nothing went as planned so I was quite irritated that I wasn't able to do that. BUT we went to Mega Video and rented 3 Dvds and got food supplies. We headed to Davids house to practice Monica's song for her choir final! It wasn't as bad as I thought, but I did wish that I had my computer to listen to the parts I kept messing up on. S'all good though. We started to watched Rent and stuff and just chilled on the couches.. Then we picked up Mervin and resumed to our first activity. Lols. It was pretty chill. David gave me expired medication for my illness which is funny to think about now, but at the moment I was about to slaughter him. I had a mean ol' headache and was majorly drowsy. After we watched Havoc which made everyone laugh, but David's mom was cooking so we would have to change some parts of it. Soon we ate some awesome bbq ribs and played some videogames! Dynasty Warriors is always fun to me! =] Love it. Playing with Monica is quite fun though! She was better than Mervin who died really fast while I was all into it! >:[ After we made pazookies and ate it. LOL yuhp just like that. After we wanted to do something else so we went to Shadow Oak and chilled for awhile. We both split up so I was with David the whole time. We were able to talk about a lot of things and kind of made a lot of closure. Though I am still hurt, I know we are in good terms. I love that fool. Even though we're like Best Friends and not taking that word for granted, I am glad I can still be comfortable around him. I was able to make him understand the way I act and etc towards him and he never understood why in the beginning. BUT NOW IT MAKES SENSE. I hate crying around him because I feel like a big wuss but oh well! I made a joke and he actually liked it, though it implicated me agreeing that he was turning into an ass. Our days when we see each other usually goes UP and then DOWN and then back UP and then DOWN... Over and over again, eventually our rollercoaster will stop. Yeah, the fog in our air is still there, but its better than it was before. This is where my road is starting to become difficult and I have to be stronger to get to the other side. I know I whine a lot, but as long as I get by is all that matters to me right now. I love you, & Monica lmao. But no serious.
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