The Rise and Fall...

Today was okay I suppose in the morning. I woke up and got ready to go out. I visited my Daddy since Thursday I believe was his 7 months... so yeh. I went to the movies with Fawzi and Monica. We watched I Love You, Man. Which was pretty good and funny. Ran into Lalique, Jesmond, David, and co. It was cool. I had an emotional break down, which I dare not to speak about. I talked with Lalique for awhile which I did enjoy. It seems easier to talk to her about things because I know she knows exactly what I am talking about and knows the other half of the story. We caught up on some things and it was coool. I went to my prayer meeting, and had a really bad break down. I felt really bad for crying because it was their first time seeing me cry so they all didn't know quite what to do. Gerard tried to talk to me but his mom pulled me into the restroom and talked to me. I pretty much told her what happened and what is going on. She felt bad because she knows I shouldn't be doing whatever I am doing or how I am handling how I feel. No names were given or person, just the simple problem and situation. I felt better after talking to her and then I had to proceed with singing. It was hard trying to sing and not cry, but I had to pull it together. Jesmond showed up right before my solo. It was cool. I tried to focus more on the song cause I really liked that song... and Jesmond said I did good on it, but I really hate hearing myself amplified. Idk. I was gonna leave, but everyone insisted I stayed and tried to make me feel better. It was nice. I got to talk to Andrew more which was cool. Gerards drums were making weird noises and no one was near it and we kept saying a ghost was playing it. mm... yeah a lot just happened and what not. Now I am home... pondering on where to pick up. Thats all I can say.