Need to Focus

"Stay strong,
and remember that relationships
are like broken glass,
sometimes it's better to leave it alone"

Song: The Heart of the Matter - India Arie

Today I went to school with Gilbert and Rainier. It was pretty fun and I was really excited Rainier was in the car. Out of the blue I ended up knocking out in the car... like REALLY random. We got to school in like 20 minutes and Gilbert went to his friends car and Rainier and I were just catching up on some stuff and talking. My first class was Math. I think I sucked when I took the quiz because my mind was really scattered and unfocused. The easiest problem I skipped when I did it correctly the first time -___- then I started to 'second guess' myself hahaha EFF WORD. Oh well. I think my Professor already hates me because I kept falling asleep in class, but I guess I was too tired/irritated because I couldn't understand her well and I wanted to 'learn'. BUT Idk thats just me being mean and grumpy in the morning. I shall do better on Wednesday and get my act straightend out. English was alright. My teacher is pretty cool and funny. She practically was late to class, was unprepared, and forgot to assign us homework. Or like 3/4 of the class left and told 1/4 that she forgot and didn't give us homework. S'all good. I need to do good this quarter & I am well motivated to do so!

Took the bus home... which was cool cause I was just texting Monica the whole time so I wasn't as bored and I had my ipod with me. I went to the mall to pay a bill and bought some candy! XD I was on a sugar rush... O.o... I came home to Aileen yelling on the phone... but iono, left it alone. After Monica gets out of school, we are going to be eating at Panera Bread! I'll finish updating this thing later.

EDIT:
Well I hung out with Monica which was fun. I think music is our cure for the day like seriously. We had fun eating our food and I ran into Tawny! =] I missed her and it was cool seeing her! >.< Bloop TOO MANY JOKES. Pretty much we went to Target and Toys R Us today. WE FOUND WHAT WE NEEDED! AND I finished the video! Why am I working hard? Idk. LOL. Oh well a good deed and a open heart works well! =] Monica, we did well today! =] HULA HOOP!!!!

LYRICS

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I want a happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh gets weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore