Time to Step It UP!

Today I was supposed to go out with Rainier and Gilbert... for breakfast... BUT I WOKE UP AT 12 HAHAHA FMYLIFE! I really wanted to go out with them foo's too. I found out something that kind of sucks about my plan, but I guess the alternative is also good. D: Blarghs. I went and visited Mr. Woodside today to talk to him about something. Pretty good! I gave someone something and stuff like that. Hrm.... oh man.... I wonder if they heard still.. BWAHAH. Monica and Joshy joined us and we talked for awhile. Hm... we went and ate Pho, but on the way I saw Rainier and co so I said my hellos to them lol x] Pho was fun, yet those bitches who sat behind us was annoying me. Monica won in eating her Pho though. We went to mi casa and watched something. We chilled and etc. I love Joshy's massages only because they make me happy! =] After took them home. But Mon and I ate some ice cream and chilled in the car. It was fun! Now I am home.. ordering books for school all late... -___- s'all good. I'll get them by Thursday. Hm... IDK I think I might sleep early today... iono

Need to Focus

"Stay strong,
and remember that relationships
are like broken glass,
sometimes it's better to leave it alone"

Song: The Heart of the Matter - India Arie

Today I went to school with Gilbert and Rainier. It was pretty fun and I was really excited Rainier was in the car. Out of the blue I ended up knocking out in the car... like REALLY random. We got to school in like 20 minutes and Gilbert went to his friends car and Rainier and I were just catching up on some stuff and talking. My first class was Math. I think I sucked when I took the quiz because my mind was really scattered and unfocused. The easiest problem I skipped when I did it correctly the first time -___- then I started to 'second guess' myself hahaha EFF WORD. Oh well. I think my Professor already hates me because I kept falling asleep in class, but I guess I was too tired/irritated because I couldn't understand her well and I wanted to 'learn'. BUT Idk thats just me being mean and grumpy in the morning. I shall do better on Wednesday and get my act straightend out. English was alright. My teacher is pretty cool and funny. She practically was late to class, was unprepared, and forgot to assign us homework. Or like 3/4 of the class left and told 1/4 that she forgot and didn't give us homework. S'all good. I need to do good this quarter & I am well motivated to do so!

Took the bus home... which was cool cause I was just texting Monica the whole time so I wasn't as bored and I had my ipod with me. I went to the mall to pay a bill and bought some candy! XD I was on a sugar rush... O.o... I came home to Aileen yelling on the phone... but iono, left it alone. After Monica gets out of school, we are going to be eating at Panera Bread! I'll finish updating this thing later.

EDIT:
Well I hung out with Monica which was fun. I think music is our cure for the day like seriously. We had fun eating our food and I ran into Tawny! =] I missed her and it was cool seeing her! >.< Bloop TOO MANY JOKES. Pretty much we went to Target and Toys R Us today. WE FOUND WHAT WE NEEDED! AND I finished the video! Why am I working hard? Idk. LOL. Oh well a good deed and a open heart works well! =] Monica, we did well today! =] HULA HOOP!!!!

LYRICS

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I want a happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh gets weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

Haiger Jager

Today was kind of fun. JK. It was really fun!

I called Monica 27398472938 times but she never woke up which was pretty interesting because that had never happened before. I met up with Jesmond at church and we had rehearsal for awhile. Chevy and I still have that freakin' joke that no one understands yet. Sonny soon was like PSST and I turned and both Sonny and Chevy pretended to jump and played Lead Me to the Cross.. I had to apologize to them that I didn't memorize the lyrics. Mass was fun because most of the time Jesmond and I were trying to figure out our solo's hahahaha. HMMMM.. After I talked with Neil and Mark since I haven't really had a real convo with them in forever! We watched Paul Blart again at my aunts house while we were waiting for the food. Ross and Raquel are so fun to be around! =] They made me steal brownies from the table that I took the whole tray while Ross was blocking me so no one can see HAAHHA we brought it to the table and we didn't even eat it, but it was fun stealing it. Ross soon left and the Tanners came so it was more amusing. Food was good and hung out with the cousins. I went back to Davids and helped him play that Professor Layton game. I realized I am not as dumb as I think I am, BUT no one can be too sure HAHAHAHA. yea a lot happened where I ended up crying and having to talk things out with him to clear the air again. Then we became on good terms like for sure for sure. We ended up talking about a lot of stuff =] which really lifted my mood and all. YUHP we watched Corpse Bride too! I love that movie! So my emotions are still kinda like meh, but terms with the David Haig is better and I feel less heavy hearted. Lol Monica kinda surprised me when I signed on! It was fun talking to her and how much she enjoyed my outfit I wore today XD

The Rise and Fall...

Today was okay I suppose in the morning. I woke up and got ready to go out. I visited my Daddy since Thursday I believe was his 7 months... so yeh. I went to the movies with Fawzi and Monica. We watched I Love You, Man. Which was pretty good and funny. Ran into Lalique, Jesmond, David, and co. It was cool. I had an emotional break down, which I dare not to speak about. I talked with Lalique for awhile which I did enjoy. It seems easier to talk to her about things because I know she knows exactly what I am talking about and knows the other half of the story. We caught up on some things and it was coool. I went to my prayer meeting, and had a really bad break down. I felt really bad for crying because it was their first time seeing me cry so they all didn't know quite what to do. Gerard tried to talk to me but his mom pulled me into the restroom and talked to me. I pretty much told her what happened and what is going on. She felt bad because she knows I shouldn't be doing whatever I am doing or how I am handling how I feel. No names were given or person, just the simple problem and situation. I felt better after talking to her and then I had to proceed with singing. It was hard trying to sing and not cry, but I had to pull it together. Jesmond showed up right before my solo. It was cool. I tried to focus more on the song cause I really liked that song... and Jesmond said I did good on it, but I really hate hearing myself amplified. Idk. I was gonna leave, but everyone insisted I stayed and tried to make me feel better. It was nice. I got to talk to Andrew more which was cool. Gerards drums were making weird noises and no one was near it and we kept saying a ghost was playing it. mm... yeah a lot just happened and what not. Now I am home... pondering on where to pick up. Thats all I can say.

Blast From The Past

Lol, so Friday which is also "yesterday" was pretty fun! I woke up to Fawzi's text message and started to shower and text at the same time with him and Monica. It was pretty fun and interesting since I was able to multitask like a beast! I wanted to buy food but my mom made these awesome jumbo shrimp that pretty much made me super happy and well satisfied! I went to visit Mr. Woodside during his 7th period which was pretty tight and all. During his class we were trying to talk a bit before he started doing his lecture. While he was giving his presentation I was playing with my DS the whole time =] I beat whatever I needed to do though! After I started to catch up with Mr. Woodside about some things and started to crack jokes as usual! Jen Jen came and we talked too while he was on the phone. It was nice too because I do miss talking to her! =] I noticed only colorguard people call me 'little one' >.< I love it! hahahaha After he had to leave so I went to find Jojo and he was at Rincon so I was about to go home until I ran into Francis and Larry. We chilled at the tennis courts and talked a bit! I miss those guys! We had some great memories 2 years ago during our summer... where we would go walking then lay in front of my house to look up at the sky for fun... =] So nice to be able to reach to them again. I watched them play and I met Adam and two other girls that were quite interesting. They all kept saying I was a freshmen in hs but I was like no... in college. -____- anywhooters. I chilled for a bit and Jojo finally came and a lot of us just chilled. After Larry and Francis jetted, Jojo and I went to Mc Dee's and started to catch up on things too! It was quite fun and chill! I like talking to him about things and I am glad he's going on Sunday at least! bwahahahaha After I went to... erm... my house and stuff then headed to the mall. I liked how they went into the wrong theater but I am glad I got to watch Taken! Such a pretty good movie. What else. I picked up Monica from Denny's where I was surrounded with choir people around my car dancing to my music hahahahaha. I said my greetings to them all individually then jetted to Cue with Monica. We were having difficulties trying to figure out how to take pictures but they were fun anyways! I got mad at the claw... -____- bastard. ANYWAYS Monica and I chilled for awhile at my house and then she had to go home. Jesmond came over to watch some cartoons and shows with me then left.

Today "Saturday" will be good =]

Give Me The Green Light

Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23

Today things went better than I expected.
Well today I woke up kind of earlier than usual...'in pain bc of working out'.. or than what I have been doing all week. I just chilled and talked to Chevy through the Gmail chat which was pretty fun and interesting. We made a bet on the conversation and apparently he won, but I still have to tell him the other half! After I picked up Monica from school and jetted. LOL the parking lot incident was kind of funny >.< t ="]">=[ Oh well it was fun more cookies and chillness! Then the text message Jesmond got was kind of funny because we kept cracking jokes! =]]] LOL. Then I went to church practice. Oscar is always mean to me, but I guess we're just having mean jokes as a war. Chevy and I continued our conversation in secret codes about what we were talking about earlier! During Bible study everyone was amazed that I volunteered to 'share' my view first and Sonny was like, "WHOA WHOA WHOA REALLY?!?!" lolol... YUHP I was in a good mood. Rehearsal was fun and funny! Gerard and I were having interesting contests. At first I made fun of the fact that he couldn't toss an M&M in his mouth and told me to do it... so I did and I got it in 2 times in a row! Then I had to throw him one to see if he could catch it and he did the 2nd time. After we had who can text the most using our toes. AND I won! He said I was weird but I still pwn! Maryann made me feel weird about my solo, but I think I did okay. After I called Monica and talked with her for awhile then proceeded with rehearsal. Once we were done I hung out with Chevy Chris Gerard and Sonny. They were a fun pack of guys to hang with! LOL we kept making jokes and having weird conversations. Soon Gerard and I were sharing the pictures that we had on our phones and stuff since we had nothing else to do. HMMM... IDK. After I just left and nooow I am here. I am a bit stressed out regarding the situation I am in about something, but its cool.

Lead Me to the Cross

But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

Yesterday was quite interesting let alone today too. I cleaned the house for a bit and then headed to Nogales to visit the choir. I came in near the end of 6th period. I loved how Jenwinn said hi to me first and everyone would go infront of her before I can even give her a hug! Lols. I talked with Klarissa about some stuff to catch up and boy was she mad! LOL not... SUPER mad, but you get my drift. 7th period came and I gave Monica a Reese's peanut butter cup in hopes she would feel better hahahaha AND IT WORKED! LOL all I can say to Fawzi is LMAO! That was funny and weird. I had fun talking with Lalique though I freaking miss her butt! Bloop! I watched their rehearsal and their song is pretty good! Shoots better than last year I believe. I think the only reason that I was bothered with our music a bit was because we did it for Tour also and we didn't have much of a variety, BUT I still loved how well we did. After I chilled at school for a bit and talked with people that I miss dearly. Kyle patted my boobs which was weird and funny. Adrian visited too so I was able to get a lot more than I wanted! =] After I went to Davids house and chilled. We talked a bit about some stuff that was bothering me, and I guess we kind of cleared it. Nonetheless it was fun! I went back home around 6 to do some stuff then I went back around 9. Too many jokes happened at night but its all good! For an hour we watched the animated series of xmen which was pretty tight because it's all old school! lol. mhm I came home a tad before 12. I felt bad because I know he usually sleeps at 10 and I was there for awhile. O___o I came home to watch cartoons so I did! =] Monica is fun to talk to at night esp. our topic I loved it! I am still debating whether or not I should get another one. But I think it'd be slim.

Today is a simple day as always! I woke up late because of cartoons and I woke up to cartoons! haahhah geez. I am about to go buy a salad at Panera Bread! I think I might go to the gym later tonight to work on my fitness! I told Monica my plan and I like my plan too! =] I am supposed to miss my prayer meeting this Saturday to watch Kyle perform with the colorguard and stuff, BUT now I have a dilemma. Monica has been telling me to just miss one, but then again I might miss a lot consecutively. It's either I miss this prayer meeting and go to his show now and not go to his Semi-Finals or go to Semi-finals and miss that prayer meeting. I can't miss both. Also, I am going to Las Vegas too in two weeks. I am still trying to figure this out with Gerard. O___o lols. FML! hahahaha

Go watch Jesmond Monica and I at St. Lorenzo on Sunday! We're the only energetic ones there! hahahahaha jk or not. hahha =]

Boys II Men- Amazing Grace

The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
Jeremiah 17:9

I love learning new things everyday. I am taking a break from journeying from this long path I call life. I have to admit, I am tired and just need time to seek out for myself. Going through my everyday life, walking through my path and taking the right or wrong turns is difficult. But who doesn't struggle through this? Currently, I am pondering the thought of, 'what am I really looking for?' I am trying to go somewhere but I have no idea where I am going to end up in the end. This isn't another confusion in life where I don't know what I want, but I don't know what I am doing. I've made consistent mistakes over and over, but it is hard to break out of my ways. I try my best, and I do take my foot forward. I suppose this 'break' I am taking upon myself is in relation to what had happend with Lalique before... her 'pursuit of happiness'. Don't get me wrong I love my life and every aspect of it, but there are times where you fall into a ditch and you don't know what to do. I suppose I just need to straighten some problems with others and myself out before I can continue on forward. I will admit that I am blessed to have those with me in my life that have recently joined me, or has never left my side (you know who you are). So far 2009 has given me a lot more ups and downs than 2008. But what I keep trying to tell myself is to never dwell upon the past. Looking back just makes us wonder what if, when we should look forward to build something better than what our past holds. I know I do look back, but I am trying to move on. Hm... I suppose after writing all this I feel much better inside knowing that my thoughts are all written out and not scattered in my brain. Fyi, I am not sad just thinking. =] I know Monica will understand all of this because she usually does.


-----dear you's-----

Dear Lalique,

I know it has been sometime since I have done this, but I know you do read this. Thank you for being such a great friend to me, and trying to keep in touch with me when you can. You have been one of the few people who I don't really have to talk to and still continue our friendship where it has left off. No drifting, no parting, no difference. I do miss you dearly though and I wish we did have time for each other to hang out from time to time, but I know graduation is coming up and you have a lot on your plate. Even though we don't talk, you still manage to understand how I feel and where I stand in life. I am blessed that I can still call you one of my closest friends to have.

Dear Monica,

My TI to my JT. I know that sounds completely homo, but we know we be homies for life. You have stuck by me through all this stupid nonsense in my life. You've seen my ups and downs, the progression and mistakes, and etc. I really do thank David a lot for making me talk to you because seriously you're a G. I know I can be quite honest or blunt with my words to you, but I do try to take care of you cause I don't like seeing you hurt. You've supported me in many things that others aren't able to do and thank you for that. I know we see each other almost everyday and do random stuff to rid of our boredum, but it is always fun. Can't wait to go shopping with you!

Dear Fawzi,

We both understand how hard it was for me to keep in touch with you while I am trying to get a lot of work done. I am glad that we can hang out at times when we are both free though because it is fun! I do try to keep your head up and you do the same for me. Just hang on in there and you know I am there for you when you need me. It's pretty cool that you try to reach me online, but my internet is a lil bastard and signs me off every chance it gets. Thank you though for putting effort in reaching me when I am barely there. I do try my hardest to be.

Dear Jesmond,

We are the weirdest people ever. We are really close then we stop talking for awhile... then talk again... then stop. Nonetheless, you were always there. You try to go to my prayer meetings when you feel like it or whatnot. And just hang out with me when you can. You've kept me happy when I am down, and you like all the weird cartoons I like so we watch those together! Thanks for being there for me lately, but I do have a good feeling that once I start Spring Quarter things will be up and down again. Thank you though, for everything you have done for me lately.

Dear David,

I know you don't ever read any of my blogs so most likely you won't see this. We are just two confused people in this world and trying to make sense of it together. I know us seeing/talking to each other varies because you have found your happiness else where and your focus is on other things. Either way, you try to keep up with me if you can, and make the best of all our chill days. I know we messed up a lot ever since... we broke up, but we are still trying. We've been together through all our ups and downs and never gave up on each other. I can say, where ever we do end up, I just hope you are still there for me. I've gotten bitter towards the fact that you moved on, but slowly I am letting it go. Perhaps, the only thing I wish you could do for me, is to support me in what I do or something cause you're never there. Anways, I just want to say thank you, for still being one of my best friends and being there for me when I need you. It makes me happy to know you're there still and btw no this isn't something sad because you already know what I told you before. =]

Dear Kyle,
I really miss you. I know you have a lot of things going on in your life right now, but please know I am still here for you. You are like my Brother... and seeing you hurt sometimes hurts me too. I know you are full of love and passion and I am glad that you are able to devote yourself in whatever God blessed you with. I am happy to see you out there performing and I promise I will try to be there to support you in your shows! Please take care of yourself and keep in touch with me when you can... I love you.

I am blessed with wonderful people in my life. I love you and God Bless you all.

"I'm a hotdog between two buns"

- quoted by Jesmond


Today was pretty fun. It was chill too! I was bored so I started to change my layout of my myspace which is pretty cool! I had fun doing it too kinda. I was only frustrated trying to find pictures. Hmmmm... I soon asked Jesmond to come over to watch Saw V with me and tried inviting Monica and Fawzi, but they couldn't. It's all good though =] I love 'em no matter what! Movie was quite interesting and gruesome! I love it! I love how tricky it was. I felt bad that I made Jesmond eat pizza while we were watching it hahahahaha. S'all good. After we were messing around on the Macbooks kinda. He was on Aileens and I was on mines, and we were like commenting each other and he took pictures with her web cam. Aileen failed at cutting Apas hair now she looks freaking scary as hell! Well shes still cute but you know... O___O hahaha. Jesmond and I were singing or mostly him. I really suck. HAHA. seriously. Uh... after we watched cartoons and then took Aileen to Albertsons. She got us candy. Hmmm.... came back more cartoons. Now I am here! ta da!

Just Look Up

Today was amazingly interesting. (Saturday-Sunday)

Last Night: I picked up Monica with Jesmond and then we tried going to the top of the world and failed. O.O Went to Cue and Cue'd it up then she went home. Jesmond and I watched cartoons for like ever! =]

I woke up around 11 I think to my mom telling me it was 12 and stuff. I cleaned for a bit then I showered. I got ready and met with Jesmond and Fawzi at Justin's house (my cousin). We played Left 4 Dead, which btw is awesomely fun, Street Fighter, and Halo 3. L4D was fun after I learned how to use the controllers! Thanks Fawz!! Street Fighter I feel like Jesmond has played it already. He knew so many stuff on it while the 3 of us were kind of trying to figure it out. I find it hilarious though when he uses Blanca! >.< *Buzzz* Then Halo 3... LMAO. I am so terrible with my kills, but I do try! It's so fun/funny esp. when we were in teams. We all techincally had almost the same colors so I always confused Justin and Jesmond with Fawzi D: It's sad to know how terrible I am and become the joke (BUT it's still funny as hell). Like when someone would shoot someone and they didn't know who it was. They'd all say I shot them when they all know I can barely kill anyone. OR how when I do kill someone they go, "FIRST KILL." hahaha love them! After I picked up Monica and took her to Mervins house. We shortly detoured to get boba and Jack in the Box! We took our food supply to my prayer meeting and helped set up. I love how everyone enjoyed saying Fawzi's name =] Thank you btw for going again! XD I had fun not knowing the songs for awhile and how we completely failed in singing Amazing Grace by request! LuLaLu was fun to watch Jesmond and Fawzi dance to! Then.... Hrm... during the songs I got kind of moody and sad. I almost cried. BUT Thank goodness I didn't feel that way during my solo. I think I could've done better but my mind was kind of drifting away... o__O. BLOOP After we did the Gospel and who has been blessed and Fawzi's welcoming song! hahaha so memorable! I enjoyed it. We had to split cause I had to do some things after so I picked up Monica and Aileen and went to Walmart in Baldwin Park. Monica and I were quite quiet for awhile since she knew I was in a terrible mood, but once I parked we started chit chatting again. Like I said Monica, "Soo0o0o Gay!" hahahaha. After I brought Aileen and Monica home and I went over to Davids house. I arrived around 11 pm I think? Idk. I met Duke and he was so adorable!!! David asked if I wanted to play Okami, but after today I was kind of tired so I didn't feel like playing oh so much. We talked for awhile about what we did during our day and stuff. I enjoyed how excited he was talking about Stephs play, but I couldn't understand the funny parts cause it was the... "you had to be there" moments. We had fun chillin and talkin. Then we watched some Mad TV stuff till 1230am. We napped for a bit then started talking again. It was pretty fun and chill like usual, but I love those days where I don't have to worry about anything. I ended up sleeping for awhile and whatnot. David now remembers my ticklish spots only cause I had to break the secret to him tsk tsk tsk. hahaha jk. I laughed when Ryan put Duke on Davids back and then right away he pee'd him! His brother gave me a disinfectant wipe to clean his back. Bloop, I also remember I kept saying, "I'll go home soon." that started around 1230ish... I ended up going home like 250am. David was already sleeping before I left so it was hard trying to go quietly because his door wouldn't close while locked unless I slammed it. LOL I am beastly tired and just wanted to update my blog.

Ahhh Shrimp Juices!

Hmms.. today I woke up at 11 and progressed in putting away clothes and what not. Now I guess since I have nothing to do tomorrow till prayer meeting I might start cleaning my room. "spring cleaning". Yeah today wasn't all that bomb during the day. I watched Moulin Rouge again and it was pretty good. Ending made me sad.... O___o

Monica came over and we chilled for awhile. We were watching some Youtube stuff and I showed her a video I made (WHICH btw she liked). We went to Boiling Seafood and ate a lot of shrimp and fries. We were writing all over the wall and drawing penis's on our table. O.O! Lol yet again though it was pretty fun and chill! =] after we went to St. Marthas so she could clean herself up then I dropped her at Galo's and whatever. Now I am home =]

The Mosquito Lost! >=]

Today was quite boring. I did a lot of cleaning and cleaning. THEN sorting out clothes and throwing clothes out. I am not done, but you know. I bought some beagle bites because i was starving. Aileen ate my candy. I went to church practice and it was SO FUN/BORING.

I know its contradicting and whatever but half was good and bad. When I got there Gerard and I raided Youtube and showing each other videos. I showed him the video of Monica and I and then Connie and Koko came in and started to watch it too! He let me on his computer for awhile then we tried downloading music. I ran out of the office because a mosquito was chasing me literally and Gerard tried to kill it for me, but we couldn't it. After we had to do Bible study. The thing we had to do was so awkward because I didn't know how to explain what I needed to talk about. Like... why do we believe someone would go to hell and stuff... Brother Jerry was like... Wow Valerie thats beautiful... then Sonny, Chevy, and Chris started to laugh about it cause it was all horrible what I said. Though, I was really tired of singing and sitting and more sitting cause yeah. IDK After Jerry made me do this weird 'beat' thing while I sing and Sonny Chevy Chris and Gerard started to mess around. He kept getting mad at me cause I was laughing at what they were doing. I found it unfair cause they were all behind him! BUT I think I did what I needed to do... O___o? IONO THEN I found the mosquito... waiting to bite me. So I told Gerard and he killed that lil thang! LOL I kept like talking all slang to Jerry, Carrie, and Maryann while they talked to me in tagalog. I was like learn my language and I'll learn yours! so they started talking to me in slang and I talked in whatever I knew in tagalog. They were talking to us about something serious that is going on and like they all started yelling at each other. Chevy, Chris, Sonny, and I sat on the floor staring at them and laughing. We kept cracking jokes about beating people up and stuff! Like.... they want us to change our music to some weird stuff and then I told them hey maybe if we pretend to be really bad at it they'll change their minds. Chevy was like YAH! hahaha After Sonny and I were comparing dog pictures and who had the cutest picture. His excuse was.... "I'm a guy!" hahaha LAME! Idk, thats how my day progressed to be from boring to fun! hahaha I love watching people fight. We were like literally sitting and watching and eating food. =]Gerard tried going to sleep but he kept waking up cause of how loud we were. He would walk around the house unsure wth was going on. He was like ~__^. Bloop I came home by 12 now I am hungry and gonna buy me some french fries and watch cartoons! YAY!

Oh The Sweet Break!

Song: Kina Grannis - Delicate

'you said, "be careful, it's delicate
things can just crumble apart."
but it's not the same for me
it's not the same for me'

Today was quite splendid. It was simple yet boring kinda.
I went to school super early and my final didn't start till 8:30. I was sitting in the lecture hall by 7 am. -____- I wasn't the first one there but I did sleep till 8 am! Bridgette woke me up actually. O.O Final wasn't too bad, just the standardizations were killing the crap out of me. I actually felt confused for once, but I hope I did well on it. Once I finished I went home asap. Ride home's usually get me to think if I am alone. It's quite comforting actually, but probably because I was half awake? Once I got home I waited for my cousin to get out of school cause I wanted to bring in some recycle stuff. We ended up getting $30 so I treated him to some in-n-out for helping me out. I got home and I was surprised Gerard texted me. He was telling me about Aj being at his school and stuff, then from 12-4 we still texted o__O homie be cool though, he's a G. I also started to talk to my friend... Robert or Mike idk which he prefers... but it was cool I missed talking to that fool. AND I think he might be able to send me the Ordinary People Spring SHOW! =] I am so freakin' excited to be completely honest. I hope he sends it or finds it. lol. I am currently waiting to hang out with Aj and co. & for Monica and Joshy to come back to Nogales. I think I am just really bored out of my mind right now. I watched a few King of Queens & Yes' Dear on tv... =/ napped for a tinsy bit. Bloops.

I think the one thing I am going to enjoy about my break is watching all the cartoons at night and not worrying about being late for school =] Oh what to do with my life?! lols.

I realized upon talking to Gerard he made me realize a lot of things about myself and that I am not that different from people. It's a good thing btw. My happiness and pride hasn't shot down and I still stand strong fyi. My nails are pissing me off cause I really want to remove them so I can play the guitar again, but nopes... It's almost off.

Now I am rambling.

BLOOP!

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Well I picked up Monica and Joshy from school and I guess you can say I was quite cranky. I was tired as hell and sleepy. But once we got to my house we all started talking and sharing things kinda. Monica was like playing with my stuffed animals kinda. We got hungry so we went to Thai BBQ and got some food =] We FINALLY found our 3rd person!! =] Monica and I are excited I hope it goes well! We surprised Joshy when we hung out with Aj and co! I missed them so! =] I loved talking to them. Scott kept recording me with his damn camera because of my freaking laugh! He said, I'm going to just randomly post this up and make sure no one knows its you! I was like O___O I hope not. Whateverrrs x] LMAO dude my parking was so lame, but when is it not? bwahahahha. I love Monica and Joshy! Things are going up! =]]]

Contemplation and Nostolgia

Song: Try - Jesse Barrera

"It takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them,
but then an entire life to forget them."

Oh life and how it takes you by surprise. =]

Edit.

So today I had my finals for Communications. It wasn't bad or anything. I did my speech finally which went pretty well! I was glad I was able to grab their damn attention since half of them looked asleep during the first speech x] The test didn't seem to be hard, but knowing me I ain't always the brightest crayon in the box. After I left and once I got on the bus I realized I left my poster, but Jesse tossed it out for me! =] I got home and ate and did part of my essay. I got lazy again so I baked brownies. Iono. I napped for a bit then I took Monica to get her hair done. It was pretty cool watching her cut her hair cause ya know. =] Her hair looks tight though. Jesmond met us there and went with us to Rite Aid. I showed Monica the I Long Beach. O.o Idk. After we hung in the parking lot where I busted out all my fobbiness. Rock, Paper, Seesors. -___- Then I tried saying Fail backwards, instead I said Life backwards and also pronounced it wrong. I suck. Lol. Idk we chilled for along while outside in the parking lot then went to Aloha BBQ to eat dinner. Today was quite simple, and keen. I like things not being so difficult. It was nice hanging out with Jesmond since I don't normally hang with him anymore. Anywho. I just finished my Philosophy paper and I just have to rapidly write notes onto that study guide for tomorrows LAST Final x] Yay. It's break time bitches. I know for sure I won't do anything, but who knows where my life is taking me.

Stop Being An Overthinker

Hm today was okay. Just math finals. Waiting for it to start was quite funny though cause they were talking about failin, then sex, then their asses, and etc. The whole time I was just laughing. I finished my final like 30 minutes into the test which lasted 2 hours. I stayed for 30 more minutes to check all my work then YUHP. I was the second person to leave in less than an hour hahaha. Bus ride home is always lonely. Got home and napped. Picked up Monica and Mervin. Then I went back home to sleep for like ever. Now I am doing nothing as usual

The Midnight Meat Train

Song: Selfish - Nsync

Today was pretty cool, I had a weird dream I was at Nogales talking to Monica and David... THEN. My phone rings around 10 am and I realized it was Davids ringtone. My dream apparently skrewed up my thought on what day it was and I was like... its Monday what does he want. Well he asked me to come over so to chill so I did. Right when I got there I fell asleep on his couch quite fast. It was cool because it was like old times just chillin'. Today we pretty much just slept for awhile and ate. Then I watched David play Okami which is a pretty cool game. I wanted to play, but I didn't want to ask. I ended up sleeping again and having some trippy ass dream I woke up gasping for breathe and David was like... O___o you okay? Lols. IDK. David played 5-6 hours of Okami and his parents wanted me to stay for BBQ so I did. I watched him play and talked with Alyssa and Ryan and Kevin which was fun. I miss talkin and messing around with them. Lyss and I picked up Apa from my house so Ruca and George can play and it was funny watching cause they were saying it like a wrestling match. Pretty chill though. Then after we ate BBQ and Lyssa's Tequila Lime Shrimp was BOMB. I won't lie, I loved it! Catfish was goooood too =] I miss home cooked food! >.< Soon we watched "The Midnight Meat Train" LMAO I thought it was a literal gay movie because Ryan and Lyss said its a story about David and Fawzi was starring the role of David and etc. BUT I still had no idea until I realized it was a horror film! It was pretty good till I had to go home. My mom had the right to be mad at me cause I went home at 10 pm. So technically I was there for 12 hours and did nothing at home. At some points David thought I was sad or mad because of my 'facial expressions' but my sleepy looks can be so decieving! hahaha Really though I had fun and I missed hanging out with David Haig! It was very chill cause we were in PJ's alll day! hahaha I won't lie, I don't mind having another long wait till we hang out again cause it's all worth while once I get the chance to hang out with him! =] Thanks again =]

May I RazzDango You?

Song: Flo Rida- Lolipop

This morning I woke up around 10 and woke Monica up! Around 12 we went to Denny's and did our thang there =] The usual we ate a lot and talked a lot and laughed about the sundae! We ended up with a lot of left overs and dropped it at Mervin's house hahahaha. Then we hung out at my house. I first fell asleep then watched Degrassi and all that jazz. Hmm.... Watched more tv.. then I cleaned the house. Hmmmm Monica and I got bored and started to do our make up and our hair which was fun! I kept changing my clothes cause IDK what I wanted to wear! D: hahahah soon after we made another video which is pretty hilarious I got to admit! =]]] We did it to Hot 'n Cold! Bwahahah the shit we did was hilarious! My bathroom is turning out pretty well I got to admit! =] Monica was like o00o0o0o. Like that. Hahaha jk. Anywho after we baked brownies and watched cartoons! =] SPONGEBOBOBOBOBOB! O.o and then..... prayer meeting. DUDE i think those brownies got me all hyper. And Monica and I kept dancing and dancing and I tried to convince Gerard I knew Aj Rafael and hes all No. LOL they complimented my extravagant dancing though lmao. Brother Alvin is so funny I love it! hahaha After we danced more and sang more and I was all kinds of hyper. Once we got to my house we ate more brownies or I did and then worked on the video! We heard Meowing which was odd.. LMAO my mom.. "check how long it is *measuring tape wobbled all over the place*" *Monica and I tried not to laugh* Oh well today was great and I love it! =] The simple things in my life are so enjoyable.


WATCH



LMAO JOJO IS FUNNY TO TALK WITH

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xxshycexpinayxx (11:54:26 PM): lolol riiight.
xxshycexpinayxx (11:54:39 PM): i should report you for threatening me
jojo pleaz (11:55:00 PM): do it not down

WHOOO EYE CANDY

This morning went well. I kinda cleaned my bed not really, but I made an effort. Hahaha I woke up at 12 PM and all that stuff. I was starving for like 2 hours and texting Monica about how much I wanted to eat something hahahaha. IDK. Then Raquel said she wanted to go to Boiling Seafood so we went! We arrived around 2 and it opened at 3... so we had to find time to kill D: I ended up sleeping in the car. Food was great though and catching up too! Hmmm after I got home I napped for a bit kind of not really. Then Monica and I went to the talent show. It wasn't bad at all! I enjoyed catching up with Lalique though! =] I miss you boo and I told you if you to text me wheneva you be down! =] Too many jokes arose from the talent show! Too sexual and all that stuff!... *Snap* After TI and I got some Ice Cream which was yummy. Ate back at my place and chilled for awhile. After we left for the movies and chilled around the mall until I had to peeeee. We waited to go in and I saw like lesbians kissing... o.O it's cool and all, but I just don't enjoy watching. Rachel and Den were laughing so hard. My family and TI watched Race to Witch Mountain. It wasn't my taste, but it was pretty good. That boy is so hot though.... BUFF. YUHPS. Tomorrow shall be interesting O.o hahahaha good day to you all.

Almost.

This morning Gilbert surprised me with doing that car thing today. We were almost late to class. =/ For communications class my professor was 45 minutes late and I was one of the few who STILL didn't get to go up. -____- Library with Niko was pretty fun though. I kept drawing all over the board. >=] Math was aite. Kinda boring but fun! We almost were able NOT to do homework, until Chris said he finished it -___- oh well! Took the bus home. It was weird I didn't notice Celine's sister until we got to El Monte! O.o IDK hm.....

Home. I waited for Fawzi to get out of class. So I did. hahahaha. I saw Brian, Juco, Monica, David, and Mervin after school. Then got Fawzi and said Hi to Aquino, Jesmond, and Lalique. Fawzi and I got some Mc Dees after school and chilled at my house while doing his powerpoint. It was pretty fun though =] haha I miss hanging with Fawzi, but my bad that I had to leave for churchness! hahaha I finally got Fawzi to take a picture! =]]]] BUNCH OF PICTURES

Prayer Meeting rehearsal was pretty fun. I talked with Oscar and them before we started. Then Gerard and I started to talk about videogames. After all that talking we starting tossing his drum sticks to see how can do it better! Bwahahah I won. Rehearsal was aite. I think its funny how they got irritated that Connie and I kept talking and talking! hahaha Oh well! =] After I took Connie and Koko home. I felt bad I was blasting my music though. DEAD AND GONE BLOOP BLOOP!


Now I am home! =] This is all starting to become fun

One Down... Three to Go...

Final for English was whatevers. Hard to think about, but easy to write. Hm... Philosophy was alright. Kind of like, boring at the same time, but he made my day when I realized we get to use the studyguide and write notes all over it. I pondered into Math for awhile and got the lesson. Pretty easy. I stayed outside and talked with Rainier about some stuff. I gots to admit do miss that fool. I liked venting and catching up with him. =] Bloop. Car ride was alright, music made me dandy. When I got home I realized, "it was time". D: After waking up from my nap I feel more bitchier than ever. IDK. Argh.

Lately...

been thinkin' bout you baby.


School was alright. Communications class was alright. I liked the Coca Cola presentation because they showed my polar bear! I wanted to go up today, but I barely made the line for presentations. *F___* oh well. Break I was in the library revising my essays on my macbook. I was quite disappointed with how slow the internet was today. Niko and I chilled and stuff. Math was fun though and we ended early! Bwahaha. I do enjoy texting Monica in class cause I don't get in trouble >=]

Home. Uh... I don't really remember... BUT I picked up Monica and then we ate at Panda. Some weird guy said Hi and Bye to us... o____o After Monica and I watched PCD XD hahahahaha then we played with my Macbook Camera and then made a video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qmt7F6H8WOM After we went to albertsons and stuff. Fun day =]

I hate revising my papers, but I pray to God I pass. >.<

Finals tomorrow for English.

My mind is trippin out.

Music Music Music

Hmmm today turned out quite well =]

This morning Gilbert picked me up a bit late and we talked for awhile in the car. Once I got to my English class I was half awake and my professor brought us breakfast! Belena and I shared a muffin XD Lenzy, Belena, and Jason were in a group and totally didn't do what we were supposed to do. I ended up speaking for our group just making stuff up HAHAHHA AND it worked! Rest of class was boring though and I kept trying to bother Jason since Lenzy was busy texting. Philosophy was next. Pretty fun talking with Bridgette and discussion in class was pretty interesting. I was texting Monica, Xanthe, and Jesse the whole time though. =] Next was math. Boring, easy and I want to say I feel confident for my final next week =]

In Gilberts car I realized how chill my week will be. Tomorrow presentation, and Wed Eng final and turn in portfolio. Then work on math hw which isn't too bad! PLUS the radio had some bomb ass music no joke =] So excited! On our way home we detoured to Ace Barro's house! I miss that fool! We chilled a bit outside and I kept dancing to great music! Gilbert was all, "You on something?" hahahaha When I got home I bought food and chilled at home. Napped and RB & Cathy came over. I... went out to buy my mom something then Albertsons. SURPRISE Monica found me at Albertsons! It was so weird and funny! Random stuff right there. At home I slept again and watched Dancing with the Stars! =] STEVEO ALL THE WAY! B wahaha

How does the rest of my week look?

Tuesday: Presentation in Comms; Nothing after school; perhaps revise essays
Wednesday: English Final/Portfolio Due; Prep for Final in Phil; Not sure bout after school yet
Thursday: Chill day at school perhaps; Church Rehearsal
Friday: Gym?; I wanna go out, but I'll see what I plan on doing; Recycle; Work on Dvd?; idkidk
Saturday: Prayer Meeting at Night.
Sunday: Church

*This is me thinking on top of my head, so IDK what I am clearly doing.

The Sun Still Shines...

...& and if it rains let it pour.
I'm not going anywhere =]

Today I was supposed to go to church, but then... I felt really sick in the morning after I took a shower D: BUT it's okay. My Mom complains I go to church way too much anyways hahahaha. Well Monica and I went out to get In-n-Out and ate at Shadow Oak park. I told her my secret to how I keep my days quite dandy even if I do get mad within a day. It was pretty cool just chillin' as usual and eating our food! After we headed to my house and looked at some old ass pictures of me. She pointed out I never look the same in pictures which is fairly true. O.o Rb & Amanda came over and Mon's and I just chilled still until I dropped her off at Mervins. Once I got home I napped for awhile until I realized that Harry Potter was on LMAO. I interneted for a bit and now I am torn between watching a different Harry Potter Movie or Family guy O= Tee hee hee. I had fishsticks which were pretty good =] crunchy! Idk if I have homework right now for... English or Philosophy which I might be skrewed at. BUT its okay!

Looking at my schedule for next quarter gets me excited because I only have 3 classes and I get out at 11:30 am everyday! I either get to drive to school everyday OR take the bus. I don't mind the bus that much, but thinking of all my money that would disappear LMAO. darn. Oh well =]


Things are looking up and I am still on my quest for happiness. Just because I gained some doesn't mean I shouldn't seek more right? I am enjoying this turn around I've done for myself though I think some people are skeptical about it, BUT it's working out for me. I tend to reminisce about the past, but who doesn't? Fun to look/think about and helps me think more towards the future. I don't see the path clearly to where it'll lead me, but I do have a good feeling I am heading the right direction. =] I am enjoying every aspect of my life right now. The deeds I've progressively done for others than myself, enjoying my bored moments, and letting go of grudges seem fairly good. I do miss my friends dearly though, but I know it's something that will eventually come together once again.


P.S.
Sup Monica! I know you read this so WSUUHH!!

May I Have...

a red neck, asian, and a n_gger between two penis's and covered with 3 different semens and a cream pie with a cherry on top?! (guess what that is) LMAO

Today was pretty well and smooth didn't do a lot but yah. Perhaps I'm going to be around with my cousin tomorrow or not since I didn't go today. I wanted to but I was tired. D:

After prayer meeting I hung with Monica and Jessica at Dennys =] tis all!

Aw Damn. IMY.

Well this morning I accidentally ate chicken. So sorry.

Lmao I drove all the way to Upland to get my Tattoo! =]
Took forever and was painful but worth it! Still hurts though. Loko was pretty cool and funny we were watching movies while we were working on my tat!

Well I watched the choral district festival with Jojo which was really fun! AND I ran into Centeno at the moment too! =] It was pretty good though. =] Lil boy in red was so adorable!

After Kyle and I sang slowmotion to practice it =] Monica tee hee WHY CANT I!

I dropped Fawzi and Jojo home and then Monica and I got hungry so we ate at Thai BBQ for awhile and talked a lot! It was very funny what we were talking about but I don't remember it anymore D: After we went to my house LMAO the maze in my garage and how Monica got stuck between the cement powder thing! LMAO I KEPT PUSHING HER AND YELLING OUT SQUEEEZE! Bwahaha we watched videos and something I made which was hilarious and sad at the same time and then listened to music! LMAO we're so gay. GONE! lmao we kept singing IDK! tomorrow shall be fun =]

I haven't really seen David for awhile or had a conversational uh... convo and seeing him today made me miss him =[ My apologies for my long hug

guess who said this, "I'll make my special sauce and eat it this time"

Something You Said Would Change In Me

Song: Acceptance- Different

Lol well today Gilbert and I went and did that car swap thing again today. Bloop I enjoyed wearing nice clothes under sweats =]

Comms: When I walked in my class my headphones was blasting my music. I saw Amy, Matt, and other people smiling all big. Amy pointed at the Professor and I soon realized he was calling my name to see how long it'd take me to hear him. .___. After I started playing with my wobbly chair while everyone was stressed out about their speech. I would've gone up today if Lily didn't get that damn perfect score. >=[

Library: Just did math

Math: Review questions and then last quiz

After: I took the bus home and then just ate a bit. I picked up Monica from school and then I went home and napped a bit. In an hour I am going to prayer meeting practice. Tis All.

Let The Rain Pour Down

Song: Katy Perry-Hot 'n Cold

I am sticking to being indifferent about many situations because I feel like I don't feel anything anymore. I am not happy nor sad, just there. O.o

This morning I told my mom I would go to school in sweats and whatevers, but then I ended up dressing up! LOL I liked my scarf I won't like about that. I fell asleep in the car once again.

English was morbidly boring.
Phil was kind of interesting. Bridgette and I just kinda stared off into space for awhile.
Math was easy peasy.

On the way home Gilbert and I kept talking about random things, but now I forgot D:

I arrived home bought food and then came home to start on my speech. I got more than half done and then headed in for a nap. I was texting Monica every now and then but I had trouble sleeping cause I was listening to the cartoon of Batman LOL. IDK.

I woke up and just walked around the house lazily. I finally finished my persuasive speech, just gotta do math which I am almost done with, and then work on my posters. =] I am getting back on track suckas! AND my quarter is ending soon so I get to be on break!

Hrm... Tomorrow... Prayer Meeting rehearsal at 730...

Friday... 12pm Monica knows whats going on at that time ;] and then the rest of my day will be a mystery.

Oh Keys Where Are You

IDK how to explain today. I think I lost my keys... so... yeah. I locked my room and I have no idea where they are.. D:... school was fun. In communications class we had to make a persuasive speech on how to kill our professor. LMAO it was so fun and I was so into it! Too bad the two matts had the best and creative stories. One of them were really scary because we all knew it would work and be possible! Bwahahaha. After Amy and I were incharge of the survey things so we had to pass them out and dispose them. Then I went to the library and did some research. I was laughing at Niko cause we were playing drawing games! Bwahaha Math was aite. That girl is nice enough to lend me her notes from yesterday =] Hmmm.... I got home.... and slept. Woke up... and now homework.. today was chill though. My dream kinda startled me cause idk. it was weird.... effing a. LOL idk monica knows the idea of it. BLARGHS. I am too tired to do anything...

I have...

Math 11.1 & 11.2 Due: Thursday (better to finish it by tonight or most)
English Revised Essay of Unit 4 Due: Tomorrow
Phil Print out that article Due: Tomorrow
Comm Work on Persuasive Speech Due: Thursday

I Ain't Gonna Deal With All The Drama In Your World.

SONG: BabyFace- Sorry for the Stupid Things

Today was quite interesting.

This morning I went to English and it was kind of like whatevers and Philosophy was boring but interesting at the same time. I skipped Math today because I went home early since I felt like shit and drowsy in school. Bus ride was cool listening to Christian songs *tee hee* and texting Monica while she jams out in the choir room bustin' a groove. Once I got home I started to eat a bit of cereal.

I waited till Monica, Jessica, and CJ got out of school and ate at Panera Bread. It was fun doing all these lame drawings and trying to guess what they were! I think they favored my 'puppy' drawing the bestest! XD We made jokes and then went to Staples so I could buy a poster board for school. Then... I also headed to Target. We bought the Pokemon DVD! Bwahahaha. After I took CJ home and Jessica and Monica came over. We were reading some Fmylife stuff and then watched the beginning of Pokemon! I love how we related it to people! =] Soon RB called me and we jetted.

We went to the mall to visit AJ and Co.! I loved seeing him my kuya again! I missed him so! We walked around talked shit, and etc. I even got a good news call! =] I am really happy! After we went to Coconut Bay and ate with them! LMAO IDK just too many funny things happened and coversations aspired among us all! I love how they have my back in the time of need =]. BTW there is a performance at Nogales I hooked AJ up so no worries. IF you like him you'll see him sometime soon! =] I will be there but I don't think half of you give a rats ass. OH well.. GOOD SONG


Dear You,

I know you don't read this because I know you probably don't care anymore. Though I am content with my life and how things are being runned, there are a few things bothering me. I feel that no, you never took me as a person for granted, but your words. I am tired of hearing I am sorry because its just words always being used over and over I just don't believe you anymore. Maybe if you can convince me that what you say has a meaning behind it then fine. I am not complaining, but I wish you understood. Perhaps everything is still new and confusing, but you need to understand that this doesn't only work around you.

Dear You,

Keep your head up and be strong. Learn from your mistakes. Don't worry about what will happen then, because everything now is just chaos. Do whats right for you, not for anyone else. I am trying to help guide you, but I can't do it alone until you know you want it too.

Dear You,

I am sorry I am so distant, I am just so busy. My quarter is ending soon so don't worry we can chill. I love you and miss you.

Dear You,

I know you try your best. BUT. I still think something isn't right. I feel that you are always lying to me or hiding shit from me. I know some things aren't the best to conversate about, but my goodness.

Dear You,

Hi baby I miss you! =] Soon we shall be able to talk, catch up, and chill

Dear You,

I barely see you, but when I do everything is okay. I miss you and love you dearly. Thank you for all you've done for me.

Dear You,

I want to sock you in the face and slap you into reality. I don't know where you get your perception on how you act, but its fucking stupid. You and your friends are starting to piss me off. Life isn't a fucking game on who gets what or who is better. Learn to appreciate the little things than trying to compete with one another. Goodness.

Emotional Rollercoaster

Song: Dead and Gone- Ti ft. Justin Timberlake

Well this morning I woke up Monica to get ready for church but she didn't go anymore LMAO. Jesmond and I were at church and he noticed my indifferentness towards a certain name. It's like everytime he said it, I went from =] to .____. IDK WHY but I did. I find it funny how many times Jesmond realizes that I always tell him 'sh' when I am praying and he keeps saying whoops. YSSUP! hahahahahaha. okay okay well we ran into Gerard and his parents in church and it's nice with the compliments, but I still don't like how I sing. D: Anywho I went to Jack in the Box because I wanted food and I figured Connie was working. We went through the drive thru and waited awhile. Jesmond yelled out, "Connie!" and she said, "Hi may I take your order?" LMAO while I gave my order she kept laughing cause she figured out it was me. After I took Jesmond home.

After an hour I headed to Church for the leader retreat. I was the first one there so I was talking to Brother Alvins kids. They were so amazed I knew the Neopets names and were like "YOU PLAY WITH THEM TOO!" bwahahaha! After Cheyenne, Koko, and Andrew came and I was playing with this stupid IQ thing. Apparently my IQ is low since Gerard said I had to use my 'skills' which I apparently don't have. They all kept asking me how I knew about the choir, then I questioned if it was a good or bad thing. LOL. The leader thing was fun with the games. It was very interesting. During the "I have never/ I have" game. It was so funny when Bro. Alvin said, "I have never had a bf." Alvin, Jesmond, and Gerard ran and Andrew remained sitting down. WE WERE ALL LIKE WHAT?! and he goes.. OH!.. NVM I GET IT! Iono funny =] Gerard tried to only get me to stand up by putting on his jacket, then I took mine off so he wouldn't call me out! >=] Yuhp! After we did a gospel reading and then Sherades. I love how Jesmond is interestingly good at it. After they did impersonations and the one Alvin did was SO FUNNY, but true. Jesmond did an impersonation of Alvin and Gerard did one of me. LOL IDK but I guess they recognize me by my 'dance moves'.

Once I got home I played with Ashton since Aileen and I ended up babysitting. I was hungry for some reason, but we went to toys r us! LOL I was amazed that Ashton was looking for, 'Tito Davd'. Haha I mean it was cute but unusual. Tee hee. I was gonna buy Brawl and Cooking Mama, but IDK! So I resisted. We bought Ashton corndogs =] LOL After awhile I did homework and Hide n Seek for awhile. He's so cute.

Now I am hating the internet. I am so confused about a lot of things right now, but I won't let it tear me down! I gotta get through this