Oh Flashlight O:

Today I went to Church with Jesmond and ran into Chevy & Leizel! Mass was aite. After I went to David's house to chill for the day! It was quite fun actually. When I got there I realized that David and I matched... Green plaided shorts or pjs... and a white shirt... lolol. I enjoyed sleeping & watching tv on the floor since I can't really do that at my house... we had jokes, talks, did laundry, play with the dogs, play with George for a really long time, Duke and his cone thing, Ruca and her pounces, & many more! I really liked his song! o: Puahahah We took pictures kinda er.. yaeh kinda hahaha We were watching tv while pressing the camera button... We watched the Avatar Marathon! That was freaking awesome! Lol I had to explain to Kevin what was going on cause it was kinda his first time watching it! XD I saw Lyss & Ryan! Lol I had a lot of fun and I am glad I got to hang with him. I had like a piggy back ride of doom. I was rammed into the walls and doors and Kevin was just laughing at me the whole time hahaha! Bloop!.. Stupid Blogspot keeps erasing the rest of my damn blog so I'll update it later....



Pictures from last night with Monds and Today with David:

Happy Birthday Fawzi Homsi!

This morning was quite difficult to wake up... BUT I got ready to go out for Fawzi's bday! VLFJ+Ba met up at my house and then we bothered Aileen while she was still sleeping. After we headed to the Ice Skating Rink! =] It was hella fun thats all I got to say. Ate at CPK good food =] On the way home I got food coma so I was taken home and I K.O'd! Once I woke up I got ready for prayer meeting which went pretty well I got to admit. =] Yuhp. Yuhp! Now I am home... waiting to go out with the familia to watch a movie that I have no idea of. LOL. YUHP! okay Done.



Btw...
I've been listening to Change Me by Keri Hilson & Akon...
makes me think a lot about things and life in general. I love it.
The lyrics are quite powerful if you can relate or understand
Heres a blurb that I liked from it:


Why would you wanna change me, arrange me
Is that what you call love?
Maybe you need somebody different
Somebody who fits you like a glove
But don't change everything that you love
About me when you know that I love you

Congrats to the NHS c/o 09

Well well well.. what to say what to say.
Last night I did some intense studying for the final today and I pray that I did well on the final! o: lols After Rainier and I ventured into the dorming areas and got lost... "stairs of doom" sucks when you have asthma but I LIVED! After I went home and got ready to eat breakfast with Jesmond! It was quite nice because we haven't really gone out just us two for awhile & it was cool =] no worries! Made a really lame poster for Kyle but I made it with love! =] Puahaha! Went out with Fawzi & Monica for awhile... & weird things happened... like.. the girl that walked up to me and called me a pretty girl... and the worker at giant dollar thought Fawzi said Earphones when he clearly said Airhorns... -___- Lol.. interesting people... After we chilled at NHS before graduation started. I hung out with Mond's while Fawzi & Monica were across the street. Then I conversated with David for quite some time =] Funny funny guy! Then we had to consult with Juco that her outfit was perfectly fine puahaha. MmMm I met up with Fawzi & Monica on the bleachers after talking with David... we sat with Lalique, Joshy, & Jesmonds family! =]Major cute stuff going on. VIP did fantastic on the Star Spangled Banner! =] Love it! But really congrats to the c/o 09 since there are many of you that graduated that I love dearly. I said my greetings and hellos and ily's to people after graduations and had a mini reunion! I am really glad I talked with Kevin today cause I miss that little brother of mine! =[ Love him dearly. I was with Kyle most of the time.. then David.. then Kevin.. then Jojo LOL interesting changes of people o: After Dinner @ Olive Garden for my cousins graduation dinner! I got to say.. I LOVE MY FAMILY A LOT! Hella loud and funny as hell! To keep it quick: talked about movies, life, stories, throwing bread, laker game on that small device, cheering for laker game, too much food, long beach, etc... =] I love it like seriously!


It's gonna be Fawzi's Birthday soon =] ILY!!!!

Never.

Blame others for your actions. No matter how bad things get, you know which way to go and how to make your decisions. Don't be blind. Open your eyes. It's hard, but its also harder on others. Do not mess with the people I truly care about.

Well I think I am pretty much skrewed for tomorrow's final for Soc because my "study group" thing completely failed. Rainier and I were only free in the afternoon... and Mei has errands during the time we are free. =[ BUT after church practice perhaps I shall head over to Rainiers place to study a bit and then study online.

@ least I get to see my fellow loves tomorrow graduate & if I do not do well this quarter then I shall fix things up next quarter & get my act straightened out. Or it is, just stupid school gave me the wrong books. -___- I should start selling my books too & make up my language class.

FYI
My internet is fixed so now I have internet all over my house again like I did 5 months ago! =]

Thanks Monds for coming over yesterday and chillin' with me for a bit! It was nice singing random thoughts, though I did very poorly on mines =[ Puahahaha! "The Best Friend Song" LMAO I didn't mean to yell stupid at you... only Brown -the dog.

Topsy Turvy! I am feeling tired as ever, but I have a lot of things to look forward to and not to look forward to. LOL


I PRAY I GET A JOB!

<3vlfjdk

Through all my ups and down. I am surprised that I was able to keep in touch with vlfjkd through my whole first year in college! It is not a bad thing, but more proud and happy. We've gone through a lot of drifting, parting, problems, and etc., but I learned that even though distance has keep us apart and time... in the end they still remain to be there till the end. They stuck it out with me through the good and bad... was there for me through the thick and thin. Nonetheless, this year was the worst year I have ever experienced... but helped our friendship grow stronger and fonder. I know it sounds bad, but it is not. I love you guys to the fullest and for being my bestest friends since last year to now! =]

keeping this simple.

i admire you.

Your Name On A Grain Of Rice

Saturday

Well to make it a bit quick. We went to Venice Beach which was really fun to say the least! After Monica and I went to the Hospital and hung out with my cousin Ritchie! =] Lol he's hella tight. Got Starbucks and all! Monds came... hella long of a night. We had taco burgers which was bomb and I went home around 7 am...

Sunday

I was dead tired from the Hospital that I showered and knocked out as soon as I could. Around 10 AM I went over to Davids house and got kind of lost. Lols! Said Hi to the parentals and Lyss! =] If I can do an overall jist of what happened. Just did a lot of sleeping, talking, catching up, gossip, more talking, watched TV on his awesome TV!, more talking, drawing, lunch!, more talking, happy tears, laughing, jokes, more gossip, realization, understanding, and making the best of it all! Lol. I love my dear David Haig. He's such a great best friend!! =]Puahaha love that guy. Anywho,I went to the hospital to see my Lola MUCH better! =] My cousin Ritchie took us (me, aileen, monica, and monds) to Wingstop! YUM!!! David told me about the Lemon Pepper! XD Anywho bomb cause we watched the game too! Then more visiting and etc. =] YUHP! I know this is all so vague and whatevers. but IDC!



I'm Lovin' All of This!



PS.
You create our own story in your life. Don't try copying someone elses. You DIG?!

"Many People Walk In & Out of Your Life...

... But Only True Friends Will Leave Footprints In Your Heart."
- Eleanor Roosevelt

I am not gonna talk about my whole day, just one part specifically.

I found it quite fun and interesting at the NHS Choir Banquet 08-09
Our table consisted Fawzi, Lalique, Jesmond, Brian, Juco, Lauren, Jesse, Joshy, and Kyle!
Kyle left us all to get food ahead of us... and then talking at the table was fun. Good music and musicians! Gotta love the "Fly" part in Laliques song! Puahah Monds! Fawzi took a lot of pictures! People enjoyed the slideshow and I am more than relieved! =] Awards were full of surprises and cuteness! I surprisingly ate the STRAWBERRY ICE CREAM. O: well technically I just dipped my spoon in it and then ate what was on the spoon... STILL its an improvement. Danced with a bunch of people! I am more than happy to say I danced with most of my best friends! Lol David and his silly dance moves seems to enlighten me for some odd reason :P Dancing with Kyle and David at the same time is so confusing but hella fun! Lalique I LOVE YOU MOSTEST! =] & Monds I am always there to dance with ;] LOL CHUBS! jk jk jk. or not. Danced behind a lot of random people! LOL David and I pwn'd Mervin when he wasn't even looking. Cha cha with Kyle was kind of difficult and funny at the same time. I came upon asthma at some point o: Monica can't hang lol you liar! I danced with CJ which was kinda fun/funny cause I never thought that would've happened. I had a random lapdance from _____ and let me tell you, it was terrible but FUNNY! haha, uhm... more stuff happened... OH! Took pictures with my two lovely boys DAVID AND KYLE! Lol it became a "simple" picture to "modeling" poses! HAHAHA then Jesmond came in it... then Mervin and Galo got in it! I got to admit, they came out AWESOME! LOL though I look nasty, but whatever. Chilled with Kyle a bit more. VLFJ took 293480 pictures! I love my Best Friends for like... ever! Yuhp. =]

Slap Yo' Face Into Reality.

Though I am surprisingly happy with things (kind of), I have found a greater annoyance in my life.

To "speak" to others about this. I just wanna say grow up, move on, and get on with it.

Sad, but Happy.

All I can say was that Soc. was kinda funny today =] thats all.

I saw and talked to David today. I can say that I really enjoyed it all. Though at one point my happiness kind of dropped, and he knew it, but its okay I rose again. I suppose this is what being a best friend is. Happy for one another and really really mean it. =] Esp. when nothing is going to change between each other. Love you my dear Best Friend

& to my Favorite Best Friend everrr!!
I have your back Xanthe Babycakes =] No worries through the thick and thin!

I am very appreciative about a lot of things today even though I am in excruciating pain

I'm In a Glass Box Full of Emotions!

Well today wasn't too bad.
I need to make things a bit quick.

Went to Nogales to work on somethings. I felt my boobs were bigger than usual which Idk how to feel about that hahahahahaha. Talked a lot with Lalique and bought her McDees before my arrival. Worked on the slideshow for awhile and then slept. Talked more and more with other people. David hugged me after he played basketball and he was all hella sweaty.... the rest you can figure out. UHM. went out with Jen Mendez which was pretty cool i love that girl! =] Then at home I interneted for awhile which was awesome. Then I got the bad news that my Lola was in the hospital so around 7 we went to visit her. Ran into my cousin and Uncle that I really really miss =] I cried when I saw my Lola... reminded me of my dad.. BLAH.. after a few hours she finally woke up and we were able to talk to her a bit and she kept singing but still struggled with breathing and stuff.. God Bless her soul in getting better. I met a cousin I never knew about ahhaha. Hm... Finished some homework.
tomorrow my final for english. Im am and not excited at the same time.
then after visit my lola again! =]

My Life is like a Basket of Fruits...

... Always Afraid to Try New Things

BUT

It's time to put that freak em' dress on! LMAO
I am glad I figured something out... right Fawzi?!?! =]


hahaha today was alright
kinda sad i don't have english anymore, just a final and a portfolio to turn in.. D:
i hope the best!





Jasmine Rafael sings wise words

Headache of Dooom!

Church was cool; Long but Fun... Jesmond Monica and Jojo attended which was also awesome
"Nice meeting you BRO!"
Chilled at my house for awhile and watched Harry Potter.
"what are you gonna do about your dragon"
Dropped Jojo Home and paid my sisters Macy's car
Found something kinda cutes. I shall buy it... eventually.
Rested at my house. Had a big headache at the same time so I closed our day early.
Texted Alyssa most of my day. =]

Boom chika boom boom.

Its gonna come!

Who Am I To Say?

To keep this blog simple kinda...

YESTERDAY

It was nice hanging with Monica, Fawzi, and Monds for awhile.
I talked with Robert for a long time! =]
Sat with us during the Guard show
Reunion with friends!
Great/amazing show and performers
Realized my heart can still break easily
Hang with Kyle for a bit
brought peopel home
Carissa, Rb, Eric, and Aileen made videos and chilled
Expressed my feelings to Rb for once and cried a lot to him
Didn't sleep till 3 AM =] Gotta love 'em

TODAY

Woke up in a terrible mood... and remained that way for awhile.
Monica and Jesmond came over. Lol to my Mom
"Monica and whatever eat now!" hahahahaha
Uhm... Chilled for awhile and Monds went homes
then Monica and I made brownies
We listened to music and watched Courage & Man Vs. Wild
Ate at Red Robin to talk about things and watched the game
Good Music
Music Video (finally!) -incomplete-
Salad Fingers
Trying on clothes
Busy day for tomorrow thats for sure.

I still love my two girls..

Lalique and Monica!


FROM TODAY

Realization

I can never get you to support me in anything I do.
Not even once.
Cause you're too busy supporting someone else.

Story Of My Life...

Silently Screaming- Ne-yo

Someone put me in the right direction,
tell me where’s the nearest peace of mind
I’m going crazy..[Ooh]
Knight in shining armour in the distance,
he sees the evil threatening my life
Why won’t he save me…[ooooh]

All I want is somebody to give a damn
notice that I’m strugglin’ ‘nd lend a hand
they say everybody needs someone to understand
well dammit that includes me too
And all I want is someone to be there for me
somebody to genuinely kiss
But I’m just dreaming, it’s like I’m silently screaming

*Even though I’m totally surrounded i feel like i’m in here by myself

How about you do it ’cause you love me
not ’cause you want something in return
Is that so crazy..crazy
In the middle of a sea of helpless,
but see I never learned how to swim
somebody save me.. somebody save me..

[Ooooh]
All I want is somebody to give a damn
notice that I’m strugglin’ ‘nd lend a hand
they say everybody needs someone to understand
well dammit that includes me too
And all I want is someone to be there for me
somebody to genuinely kiss
But I’m just dreaming, it’s like I’m silently screaming

*Even though I’m totally surrounded..

*Somebody to catch me when I fall, somebody who helps me through it all
someone I can trust, tell me if I’m asking to much..

All I want is somebody to give a damn
notice that I’m strugglin’ and lend a hand
they say everybody needs someone to understand
well dammit that includes me too
And all I want is someone to be there for me
someone I can genuinely kiss
But I’m just dreaming, feels like I’m silently screaming

Even though I’m totally surrounded..[silently screaming] I feel like i’m in here by myself.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I don't even want to deal anymore.

Cannot Stand It.

Cannot Take It.

Excited for Sunday.

School was alright. Math I made a new friend kinda.
English Ashley and I proceeded with our presentation without Anna,
but she walked in and did her part after. Interesting topic
discussion in class =]
Bus ride was alright
Proceeded with my essay as usual!
Picked up Monica and bought some stuffs
Finished Paper....
Charm School...
Then Slept for 2 hours I believe
Went to Church Rehearsal which was REALLY FUN =]

Regardless if some people do not go on Sunday to watch
I think I'll enjoy myself =]

Amazingly Interesting.

I had a choice not to go to school, but through DEEP DEEP thinking in the morning, I got the courage to go to school. The MAIN reason I went was cause I figured I'd write half of my essay in that freaking class. I kinda talked with Mei, Dorinee, and Abby about how retarded that class was during our "discussion". LOL I did miss Rainier though... D: Bloops. Lets see. Lenzy ran into me "literally" at school hahahaha we talked and caught up about stuff. LET ME TELL YOU SHE SAVED MY ASS ON SOMETHING! =] Thank you!!! Niko took me home and I kinda enjoyed the ride home. We were singing Knock You Down and I kept dancing like a biznatch. He soon realized I have these weird reactions to "love/depressing" music. Then asked... "You don't easily fall in love huh?" Weird question, but some what true. My answer to that is its so hard fall in love... because once you fall in, its hard to fall out. O.o iono I'm weird ass hell. I did enjoy my text messages with Lalique though =] MHMS! Lets see... I took Aileen to get her hair cut so she did and cut it short! O: Missy came so it was fun talking to her. I removed my nails. Worked on my essay then napped for like ever. After I still haven't finished my essay. Teacher gave me an extention on it but I think I will turn it in anywho. Just problems with my group presentation... -____- BLAH. oh well think positive! Lol I finished my essay and stuff and I am still reading the journal for Soc. it isn't bad, but it isn't interesting either. LOL. Oh well as long as its shorter than the book I read last time. =/ I am almost done with everything I need done this week =] Weird random good things are happening but I LOVE IT! puahahaha


Sadly, I miss David! =[

How Deep Is Your Love?

pretty deep =]

Well... today I really didn't expect to do much, but I guess I did! Puahahaha! Love it.

To keep it simple. Monica and I went to Target and did a few things. Then Panera for Lunch. Salads are good =] & Frozen Mocha? Hrm.... Back at my house chilled and did puzzles! Fun stuff I tell you. Currently our project is Vegas =] 765

After Lalique came over and had a major chill seesh! I got to admit I love it! I was being such a bitch on everything I was saying... I felt bad for awhile, then I turned into a big whatever =] Sang. Watched stuff. Talked a lot. and more and more =] Quite lovely. >.<

No Homo!


Chill. but awesome. =] Thank you, you guys

Daddy's 9 Months

Well "yesterday".... I went to Church with Monica & Jesmond. Bought breakfast... and stuff. Talked with Teddy after church which was fun =] Then Rubios! Yums. Sleep till Party at my house. Random Homo moments with Monica.... O.O puhahahaha. It was slow/fun/interesting. I love my family! Monica, Monds, and Lalique were over. I loved talking with Lalique it was fun and revenge 2! was bombtastic! =] Hm... cards and stuff was fun. Albertsons. Kiddies running around. Mixed emotions, content =]. Hrm.... I need to get my shit together for the next few classes. o: Babysitting Ashton and playing HidenSeek! =] BLARGH! Good day. Good Day. =] Pudding. Demon Magic. War. Slap Jack. Hair playing. Chit Chatting. =] Oh how my mind is entangled with a lot of different thoughts.




Daddy I miss you. Happy 9 Months! Today. Love you always and forever =]

Simple & Chill

Well today I didn't really do much actually.
I was supposed to go out in the afternoon, but I ended up cleaning my room a lot then knocking out for a couple of hours! Did some errands for my mom and then slept again.

Around 830 I went and picked up KENNY WONG! =] LOL
We ate at Red Robin and caught up on some things. Good dinner and talk!
He kept making fun of me of how I put ketchup in my ranch... and everything else
then I kept insulting him around people hahahaha!
After we went to Shadow Oak Park and showed him the new area which was cool.
We went to my house after and took pictures and talked more =]
Eugene picked him up and I dropped stuff off to Monica Tis ALL

=]

David Choi - Won't Even Start

What happened
after last summer
when we broke up
in September

I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you

Cuz youll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

Questions?

School was quite interesting... I didn't pay attention obviously, but I did have fun in class for once! Sorry Rainier bout chyeah.... =/ Home I just slept & Sears put in the air conditioning so its fixed! =] Puahahaha. Picked up Monica and went to Michaels then Starbucks! As we were walking out Aj, RB, & Cathy were calling me and we hung out with them for an hour or two. It was really fun I got to admit and Franz, Derek, Fabianne, & etc. started coming... more singing... and chillin. =] Really fun! Then I went home hung with Monica and then talked with David for awhile. Picked up Jesmond and headed to Church. Rehearsal... was "interesting". Idk how to explain it. After Chipotle. Now I am done I suppose. LOL DAMNIT ALL!

Cause I Cannot Remember

a lot of yesterday.

Overall
Skittles, nap, American Idol, Dancing with the Stars, Rachels random comments, same company =]

Today.

I accidentally knocked down my Mac off my bed when I woke up... then I went to school. School was really good surprisingly. Home. What am I going to do today? I'll figure it out! =]

You Are My Hiding Place

Oh how life is topsy turvy!

Saturday

Pretty much Jesmond came over and helped me take down my pictures and awards that were on my wall. So my walls are just blue... puahahhaah! We talked for a bit and then we picked up Fawzi and headed to the mall. We chilled there for awhile and played contact to kill time. Angels&Demons was a really good movie I got to admit! Many inside jokes =] Lol after we went to Denny's and played more contact and ate some good foods! =] Convo in our car was hella funny =X We took Fawzi home and then Jesmond and I continued our conversation by looking into the yearbook! LMAO I can't remember the rest except the fact that we just talked a lot and took him home =]

Sunday

Well I woke up and picked up my usual companions for church =] Bought some McDees for breakfast and waited at church till the 9am mass ended. 1030am mass was great! I even remember the Gospel cause I loved it so much! John 15:9-17 =] Puahahah Good topic and makes you think really hard. After chilled. Lalique came over too and we all just hung out for a bit. Fawzi took awhile to get here but he did! Lol Lalique and I talked about SD and other things! I love our talks they are quite hilarious! =] Fawzi and Jesmond did their own thing kinda while laying on our asses! Puahahahaha! It got super hot that we slept for awhile and then got Coldstones! =] Apple Cider YUM! lmao unrelated btw. Lalique and I caught up MAJOR which was cool cause I LOVE catching up with her! =] My other babygirl came =] puahah! Chilled with us Lalique left and the rest of us "told" ghost stories. I was like super hyper and out of it. I kept laughing and drinking cider.... O_O fell off the chairs... =[ After I talked on the phone with David & I ended up going to his casa for awhile. Chilled & etc didn't come home till later and I got in trouble D: Erm.... Randolph was at my house and we talked a bit and I said my last goodbye and picture with him which turned out good but I'll post on myspace when Aileen uploads it. THEN SLEEP!

Today

Well I woke up terrible.. so I dressed up terrible looking too puahahaha. I almost woke up late also so I just ran and grabbed my stuff. Quite car ride today though... =[ Stupid songs making me all hella sad! I was in my math class like... an hour early so I didn't know what to do besides study for a bit. I ended up sleeping for 20 minutes hahahaha boring boring the class was... and did quiz. After English! I love english and I love how we debated today! I love participating in that class! Thats all I am gonna say! Bus ride was lonely and quiet... =/ I went home and checked my email and I read that Chevy sent me a song to learn! AND I LOVE IT! Puahaha! XD I like that song! I ended up sleeping to it in a good happy hibernation way! After David called and I picked him up after jazz. We talked about some stuff and had to really talk about something. Kinda. And then we walked to Mc Dees! He made me climb his backyard fence and down the hill! It was fun but scary since I am clumsy. The walk was really beautiful and since I naturally walk fast he told me to slow down and "enjoy the view" it was really nice though. We ate and walked back hopping over sprinklers! =] We saw Abby and Jason while she was driving. Climbed back into his backyard and then I slept for awhile. More talking and sleeping. and more talking and sleeping! Lol then we started to make inside jokes and I kept eatting bananas =] watched Simpsons and 24 soo.. yeah... I suppose after our walking journey it helped lighten up our mood and made us feel much much better =] I am glad I am able to talk to him about stuff. & I am sorry for whatevers I can't remember my thought... oh for saying something i shouldn't have I suppose. Blarghs! =] I feel gay happy so YAY! hahahaha.

I Learned to Never Listen to my Feelings About Love

My life is starting to look up and perhaps I am slowly letting go.
Keeping some things to myself is okay because eventually it'll mean nothing in the end. I still have my family and friends. Thats all I am mostly greatful for. Everyone is moving on and the world keeps spinning. Perhaps we'd stubble upon a bad day, but we should look forward to the next day to be a great day. I hurt but I am only human. Lately I have been able to be with my friends all together and I really missed it. Spring show was great, I had my ups and downs, confusion and all... but in the end... the night ended great. Today was the same. I missed everything but I feel like I am going to be okay in the end. Life is life. I learned in church that our feelings towards love doesn't really mean anything... its hard to explain but i get it. Love was a great topic to talk about today really.... I am still learning... I am still "young". Life goes on.

& so will I.
ily vlfj+kdam

*cause our song... says more about us than you think. =I

YELLOWCARD-ONLY ONE

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

walking away

(written by rachael lawrence and deborah ellen)

don't want you to beg
don't want you to cry
don't want you feeling like
you wont survive
don't wanna cause you pain
but i don't know an easy way to walk away
and i'm walking away

somehow one day we lost our way
and no one no where thought we'd end this way
you're not the only one in pain
wish there was an easy way to walk away
'cause i'm walking away

maybe time will heal all the pain we've made
and maybe someday all of this will just fade a away
wish you could see how desperately i want to find another way
but i can't stay
i'm walking away
----------------------------------------------------------------------------

you can say that i did enjoy English & going to NHS dress rehearsal
I love being around VLFJK again even though we were missing "d"
rolling on the floor with kyle was hilarious i got to admit =]
prayer meeting rehearsal was kinda funnnn
my interpretation of love was pretty alright too. until
they asked me who i am in love with and its obviously no one...
only the fact that i learned a lot from the people around me and experience.
after rehearsal practiced song with carrie and then jammed with
chevy sonny gerard and kris! they always make fun of me
then again its true i never remember the lyrics to any song
and that i fall out of my car a lot hahahahaha
oh well good times.

This is So0o.. WRONG.

i am happy upset disappointed

all for many different reasons.

the only ones who understand is mostly David & Lalique
@ the current given moment.

A MESS!

A lot has been going on lately

as in...
preoccupied and lazy to actually blog lately.

I've been having fun tis all and missing friends.

Cause When I Look Back.

you were worth the fall when you hit me down.

Front & Back.

I am getting tired of aching... D:

Yesterday wasn't too bad.
I went to church with Jesmond and Monica which was alright.
Chilled at my house I think and ate Jello, Pasta, & Ice Cream
Watched the Office
More chillin & textin each other.
Went to Brea Mall for stuffs
Dropped Monica to Mervin
Hung out with Monds for awhile
Jesmond dropped me to Davids place
Hung out at Davids
Chill, talk, eat beef steak, walking into baskets, watched a movie,
sleep, helped with laundry, & stuff
Went home around 12 I think?
Good talking&hanging with him though.. its always nice =]

Today.
Went to Rainiers class cause I needed to do some English homework.
Skipped Math.
Did interview for stuff.
Hang out with Rainier.
English was pretty cool.
My team won extra credit
Niko&Rainier took me with them to Nogales to study
I learned kinda. or I watched them study
Said hi to Monica & Fawzi mostly
Now I am home doing nothing I believe.
I am tired... & my neck is super stiff it bothers me.

My UPDATED BLOG - 050309

since I highly doubt I'd go do anything today.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Yesterday was a pretty good day in the beginning.
I had breakfast with Monica and then I picked up Franz to visit Nogales.
Mr. Woodside & Ms. Cao were really fun to be around.
Xanthe came too and told more jokes.
Mmm went home because they wanted to go home and I didn't want to stay alone.
I napped for awhile... and talked on the internet.
Picked up Monica & Joshy and did Joshy's hair.
Jesmond came over chilled and talked.
Did Karaoke which was fun even though I was terrible.
Fawzi came on over and continued the same stuff then Aileen joined.
Took Joshy home.
Went to fair to say hi to people and stuff...
Ran with Monica across the street as if we were gay puahaha
It rained.
Monica and I were really hyper so we kept laughing and jumping on each other.
Monica Jesmond and Fawzi were drawing penis's on cars.
Headed to Applebee's.
Car accident.
Lol the police guys =]
Hrm... stuff stuff stuff...
Lalique came asap and Aj was there too
*group hug* puahaha
My house.
Had pizza & stuff
chilled, talked, & cartoons.


I recently found a bruise on my leg. =[
now I am carless... then again, I don't feel like driving

TO Jesmond Monica and Fawzi:

I am sorry about what happened, but I am dearly blessed that you guys are all okay. I love you guys with all my heart and thanks for trying to support me in anyway. I didn't mean for you guys to be in that kind of danger even though it wasn't my fault. But I am greatful you guys are my friends and I believe you should know that if you didn't. I love you guys

& TO LALIQUE:

Thank you for staying with us the whole time. I greatly appreciate it. I love you baby =]

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Well I guess I did do something today! LOL.

Monica and Jesmond came over.
Made Jello, ate ice cream, &...... the devil wears prada!
Ariel invited us to watch the fight at her house =]
Chilled at Ariels for a really long time and a lot of bonding!
Pretty tights pretty tight! I enjoyed it lots!
Fight was good Pacquiao obviously won but sadly fight was too short
Texting during the fight was kinda fun/funny!
Made videos and took a lot of pictures =]
Ate at Denny's

Good day =] Nice recovery from last night, sadly...

My neck/back is starting to hurt now... my left leg is sore..
bruise on my right leg.. D:

FML.

car accident.

Oh Dear.

Today was aite. I still love talking to Rainier in the car =] puahahaha!
Sociology was whatevers. I texted Mei every now and then and took notes kinda except I ended up drawing in class which kinda turned out cool. Turned in my paper... lol yuhps. I left class early though cause I wasn't "feeling it".

Waited for Monica after school and we got yummy crepes! Thank you thank you! We then stopped for Jesmond except we ended up staying in school. Sadly, my weird mood swings started to occur so it wasn't that great to have... =/ I saw Claude, David, Abby, CJ, Kyle, Xanthe, Celine, and etc at school which was cool. I ended up crying for awhile after talking to Kyle but then talking to Lalique made me much better. I love you baby girl! Then I was still kinda "feeling gay" so when I ran into Xanthe my day got MUCH better =]...

Went to dinner with Franz which was quite fun! We caught up on some things and hes going with me tomorrow to visit Mr. Woodside and then put on my license plate on my car. =] Pretty dope!

Though I still kinda feel retarded and unhappy... but I am trying to get by... @ least I have some stuff to look forward to this week and next week actually...

Tomorrow: Woodside, Festival
Saturday: RainierMonica&Ace?, Xanthe? lmao
Sunday: Church, Study with Mei?
Next Saturday: Disneyland with Kyle

Move Along... =]

Oh The All-American Rejects how you speak to me at this moment.


Today was quite interesting. I woke up unsure about a lot of things, but I persisted on getting ready for school anyways. I greatly enjoy my conversations in the car with Rainier and I love sleeping in Gilberts car! =] Math class was a big bore, but I guess I learned... I was gonna ditch and go to Rainiers lecture... ionos. I think the reason I didn't go was cause I had a cramp on my foot and Lec Hall was FAR. Bwahahah. English was great as always though =] Very informative and intersting, a bit out of the norm cause she lost her paper of topics to talk about... but yeah. =]

Bus ride home was boring.

Home... it was alright ate lunch and then I went to Nogales to talk with Mr. Woodside about my paper for Sociology. After I finished my paper in his class, we proceeded to watch youtube videos! LOL people were like surrounding my Macbook to watch whatever we were watching XD
After I worked my way to the choir room and talked with people I haven't spoken to in forever! I loved it! =] It was nice to see Aquino again too! Been awhile. Blarghs.

Now I feel kind of restless and annoyed. Angry, confused, but I plan to keep my head up no matter what. =] But yeah.... I hope my paper is good.

& I made it home alive =]

lmao. so today was quite interesting actually and lovely!

In the morning Rainier and I were kind of 'venting' to one another and I found it hilarious the shit we say about certain things =] Lets run that bitch over! When Niko came, I was scared as hell cause he kept talking bout how he lost his ipod and driving all kinds of crazy. Seriously I was really scared. O_O We arrived at school and Rainier and I kept cracking MORE jokes and shit. During sociology class Rainier knocked out and I played with his ipod touch. ITS FUN! =] I need one for boreduhm! I also was texting Mei in class even though she didn't sit too far from me. We had a really good conversation though through texting I gots to admit! =] brought back old times! After class Mei walked me towards the bus stop and we just kept talking and talking it was really nice actually =] I miss that girl! Bus ride home was really nice too. I kept smiling at people like a crazy person though. I bought myself some food and went home. I did a bit of homework kind of and then knocked out will 5. I woke up did more homeworks then more internet.. =/ pretty much my day! but yeah I accomplished stuff due tomorrow... my mind is just not functioning well enough to do my soc. paper for some odd reason. I know what i want to write, just not coming out right... BLAH.

Tired, but Happy

Today school wasn't too bad. Math was pretty chill and English was great as always =] we watched Fight Club a bit and stuff. Rainier had fun "fighting" while waiting for Niko. Bwahahaha

When I got home I continued reading my Helen Keller book. It's getting good, but then my eyes are too tired I can't keep up. =[ OH well at least I am enjoying the book and I am almost at where I want to end. =]

I picked up Monica after school and we ate Pho! Tried to brighten her day so I just sang to her a lot.. and a lot!

I fell asleep trying to read today... then I was awaken to David. We kept yelling on the phone because we were terrible at communicating through a static phone.

I picked up David at school and hung out with him at his house. It was fun and chill =] Thanks man. I didn't expect to be there till 11 though O= bwahaha. Good times.


"It's okay to say you miss me." - DH

A Moment To Freeze Time

Yesterday was really fun actually. Jesmond came with my family to visit my Daddy again and then we ate at Ruby Tuesday's =] lol Rachel and Den were hilarious! Bwahahaha After we picked up Monica and watched Obsessed which was quite a good movie! Woot! We chilled at my house for a bit and took pictures... then we went to Denny's... Damn lady took forever but nonetheless it was fun. At my house we made a video which is O_O hahhahaahhaha okay. Tis all I love em

Today Church with Jesmond. It twas pretty cool and chill =] We had a good talk though it was kinda hard to talk about some stuff but I think I'm getting used to it slowly =]

Now... Lunch for my cousin... then HOMEWORK

- Finish English Readings and notes
- FInish Revising and Final Drafts of Essay
- Finish Helen Keller (notes and book review shiets)

Because slowly life gets better

when you become patient... =]


So lately I've been closer with my Church friends which has given me a brighter perspective on life. I know we all will suffer and struggle, but that is our burden to carry and live with. Esp. to move on. Perhaps I noticed slowly my questions being answered, and I thank God for it all. =] I would also like to thank those who has been helping me through a lot this week. I am blessed to have you and call you my friends because you are actually making a difference. =]

Most of my time has been with Monica and Jesmond. I enjoy it! Thats all I can say!!

My Dad finally visited me! & it was a great visitation that I woke up quite optimistic about my day! I was so happy I folded my clothes and showered. My hair didn't act like a jackass to me and everything went SMOOTH! =] Oh how I am happy to be part of the music ministry and to be with my close friends that I love so dearly! This day was great let alone this week =] Daddy I miss you and love you dearly. Come visit me more often.

i need..

a f*cking job

------------------------------------------------------------
half an hour ago there was an earthquake i apparently didn't feel..
because i was busy taking a shower hahahahahhaha where i was
currently dancing and shaving haha >.<


today is an okay day...
not much going on... but its okay i don't need to do anything
special or whatever..... hrms...


do i miss you...?

mhm.

Waiting On An Angel...

Ben Harper



I need to relax... take time to breathe... I am still upset...
but then I need to 'let it go' in some sort of way
I need to take care of this situation the right way...
I'm not stupid, but I know what is right

Fool me once, shame on you

Fool me twice, shame on me....


Under My Bed - Meiko


is that all i am really to you...
you should've said it first before i heard it from someone else...

fuck you jerk.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Now my eyes are wide open
Now that every thing's been stolen
And I'm here to get it back from you
See I ain't wasting no more time
gotta take back whats mine
What else am i suppose to do

Here I am
with my heart on the floor
and my love out the door
you should be knocking
but there it goes
I got nothing to show for
except pictures i posed for
but i keep them in a box under my bed

I told you time and again
that you'd never win
I told you time and again
but you keep doing the same old things
when i thought you would change
I told you time and again

Here i am
with my heart on the floor
and my love out the door
you should be knocking
but there it goes
i got nothing to show for
except pictures i posed for
but i keep them in a box under my bed

oh, ooooo, oh oh
ooooo, oh oh
ooooo, oh oh

oh, ooooo, oh oh
ooooo, oh oh
ooooo, oh oh

Here i am
with my heart on the floor
and my love out the door
there it goes
i got nothing to show for
except i posed for

Here i am
with my heart on the floor
and my love out the door
you should be knocking
but there it goes
i got nothing to show for
except pictures i posed for
but i keep them in a box under my bed

oh, ooooo, oh oh
ooooo, oh oh
ooooo, oh oh



---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

When You Have Too Many Dreams...

& can only keep one... what will you choose.

I feel there is just too much going on in my mind. I try to let it all out, but some I feel is better if I kept it secluded in the back of my head. I am not sure what I want to do with my life anymore. I want to persist on so much, but in reality you can only do so little. I feel a clash of happiness and sadness that I don't know what to do anymore. I've never felt so lost between the subjects of friendship, relationship, love, lust, family, friends, work, trust, & etc. I am just questioning so much and wondering where it will all lead. I want my answers, but no one will give them to me. Perhaps without all these distractions, mess, confusion, and etc. life would be boring and useless. If I turn around and go back, I know that I have to make some sacrifices of the life I live now. I can't have everything I want, but no one can. I feel so trapped and lost. BLAH.

I can finally say, "I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT."

I'm not upset, I just don't know what I am doing anymore with all this. I wish I wasn't so confused with everything.

I got to admit, I think I enjoying being 'alone'. at the current moment.




-it doesn't mean anything until you press it and see it run down.

Downtown Disney & the Getty Museum =]

Well yesterday was just random. Hung out with Monica and Jesmond while eating hotdogs/corndogs YUM! Then Jesmond had a great idea about going to Downtown Disney soo we went there =] It was fun and we ran into Brian and Juco! =] LOL Churros were good and I enjoyed it! Monica was funny cause she was sooo excited But yeah it was muy fun! Good Idea Jesmond!

Today I went with Monica and her Mom to the Getty Museum! It was soo amazing and I loved it all! I really enjoyed the photography and drawing room though =] bwahahaha all of those nude pictures made me giggle because im really immature... -__- Bwahahahah We made masks in the Family Fun room which was really fun honestly! and then Monica drew penis's and stuff and posted it on the wall bwahahahhahaa What else.. HRM.. we did a lot of walking and stuff.. this girl in yellow was pissing us off though.. -___- blarghs oh well! Look at myspace for all the pictures! =]

No Internet for a Week! I hope it works.

Btw... Look what I found on my Old Camera.... =/

It Says It All

Jennifer Chung - Almost

It's been a while, it's been a while
Since you've said hi
It's been a while, it's been a while
Since our last goodbye
It's been a while, it's been a while
And I still haven't cried
I'm surprised

I haven't called, I haven't called
You see, I've been strong
You haven't called, you haven't called
I guess nothing's wrong
God called, He called
Says it's going to be okay
It's for His glory

So live your life and do what you got to
It's only at night when I really miss you
But the morning comes
Bringing a new day and everything seems to start over again

Have you been good?
Have you been great?
Most likely
I've been good, I've been great
Just keeping busy
And we should since as of late
Time just passes by
We don't even have to try

So live your life and do what you got to
It's only at night when I really miss you
But the morning comes
Bringing a new day and everything seems to start over again

One day you'll see
One day you'll know me as the girl that you let go
It was, so close, almost

So live your life and do what you got to
It's only at night when I really, really miss you
But the morning comes
The morning comes

The Past Few Days...

were pretty good.

Wednesday. School was okay, nothing great happened. I still enjoyed english though because it is one of my favorite classes =] Bloop. I went home.... and chilled. Talked with Monica online and stuff. I was gonna go nap and then Jesmond texts me bout Stater Bro so I hung out with him. We got Monica to join us! =] Pretty much just a random ass day that was pretty cool:
- Stater Bro
- Boba
- Island Pacific
- Ikea
- Target
- Party City
- My House
- Prayer Meeting Rehearsal
- Boiling Seafood
- Top of the "Nut"
- Crooked Penis
- Hanging out in the Dark
- Rb & Co.
- Hotel 626

Thursday. I woke up Monica cause she came with us to school. It was pretty fun actually! We got food in the morning and chilled in the car till Niko picked us up. Then we started singing a lot in the car >.< Passing notes in class which was HELLA boring. Or my class was boring not the notes. Monica, Rainier, and I enjoyed it though. She was fixing my hair which was pretty cools =] Bwahahaha Bus ride was hilarious though.. Monica was singing all loud and the bus started to girate and my boobs were like bouncing... -___- Hrms.. Monica and I went around West Covina Mall to buy some shoes.. it surprisingly took forever since it was hard to find good shoes with my size D: After we got some chocolate covered oreos which were bombtastic! Monica and I headed to Puente Hills mall after and ate while waiting for Lalique, Jesmond, and Fawzi! =] I can say I had a really great time in Forever 21 esp in the fitting room! I love those two girls! It was really fun!! =] I really wanted that dress but its okay! next time. After V-Generation! I love that shirt/dress thing =]]] Bwahahah yes. But after... Lalique had to split so the four of us went to Costco and messed around a bit. We pretty much ate samples and played with their stuff. Hotdogs & Churros after.. hm... chilled at my house and watched some DVDs which was pretty tight =] Monica and Fawzi knocked out for quite some time... hahaha After Fawzi split then we got Yoshinoya. Waited for Lalique then went on the "nut" =] It was muy pretty and chill and cold. Drove around that area which was pretty scary. After... RB came over again hahaha yuhps

Friday. I think I really enjoyed this day. I played the guitar all morning pretty much and just chilled. Monica came over and then we washed my Moms car which was really fun =] The whole time I was on the phone with David because I was really surprised he even called. We went to the mall so Mons can buy something and then got some milkshakes on the way back. We realized there were a lot of asshole drivers out there (@ that specific moment).. -____- what else. I had to pick up my Altima from getting repaired and then picked up David at his house. He helped me wash my dirty ass car that went pretty well =] lol. Cleaned up then chilled in my room for awhile. Waited for time to go by so I can get ready and leave... lol (Don't Break Promise.) Bloops. I got ready and picked up Monica and headed to Olive Garden. Met Lalique, Jesmond, & Fawzi there. Tee hee the kitten =] It was fun waiting and talking. I love how the girls had the most awkward conversation out loud but oh well! Wait was forever though. 25 minutes my ass. bwahahha. Once we were seated we talked and stuff kinda and then ordered. Girls only ordered and guys refused to eat pretty much. lols HmmMmMmm Lalique had trouble in the restroom so I had to go into her stall bwahahaha. Lalique had to jet toward the end and we just chilled. They made fun of my debit card D: We went to the very top of the "nut" again. it was way better at the top but very scary! =] Loved it. Too bad no camera. Hmm... chilled at my house. Didn't know what to do at my house... but we made the best of all the randomness that goes on. Like that Grudge game and Fawzi and his light bwahahah. After I took everyone home, but I had to go to Davids to help him get out of trouble. After I helped him clean a bit and then watched TV... I fell asleep.. so yeah. Talked a bit then I had to leave. Tis all

I'll Make This Quick.

Las Vegas was bomb!
Monday was Fun
Today was kinda meh

So Long Hometown for the Weekend =]

Well to update my edit from earlier... or "yesterday" I went to Denny's with Monica and we had quite some fun in the car there. Lalique and Jesmond came and joined us in the fun! =] Good food and drinks and had major fun together. THOUGH Monica was quite quiet... D: next time speak more! lols Sorry again Lalique for my major rampage in the restroom... LOL I told him what happened and he just did this O= hahahahaha! Okay okay. Well after I dropped off Apa at Davids house. I ended up chilling there for quite some time... we talked and watched Ryan play X-Men. I tried sleeping and stuff but that never seems to work hahaha. I had fun at his house... poor David though... he started getting like allergic reaction to something lately and he got like swollen and I put ointment on the itchy parts and all. His lip got swollen and his brothers kept making jokes and laughing at him. I couldn't help but laugh too D: hahahaha but he said it was okay. I hope he ain't allergic to the dogs though cause that would suck. We rubbed all four dogs on each limb to figure out which one he is allergic to. Bwahahha. Well I hope everyone has a fun weekend and a nice Spring Break or so!

I am off to Vegas and I doubt I would be able to document my trip with pictures... BUT I shall see what happens! =]

Dooms Day 3.

Сада сам јако скептичан о многим стварима. Нисте сигурни који могу потпуно поверење са својим осећањима и проблемима. I depăşească toate drama cu alte persoane sunt doar încearcă să-l lăsa să plece. Doar nu au nici o inapoi stabbing, inima aches, minciuna, etc, si m-am gandit atat a fost mai mult decat suficient, dar de cele mai multe ori doar pe blog-ul meu de rahat divagare.
Foles sutien / bedre lini º tit meg, de siste la dagene.

Håper i dag er ikke gråte eller noe. Jeg skulle ønske jeg visste utfallet av livet mitt nå, fordi jeg bare vil vite hvor jeg er på vei. Jeg har ikke ennå, "fortsatte min reise," fordi jeg kjenner mine behov og likevel ta en pause. Nipprova landa siltiet, Imma kultant inti MA xi jistghux jilaghbu bil-siltiet. Niehu L-Hin, U hsibt darb'ohra. .

Poida que as persoas estean a tentar cambiar as cousas na miña cabeza, porque é bo para comer, mentres eu non podo afirmar-se. Intento no es preocupen per les coses insignificants en la vida, perquè millor a les prioritats establir.

Ви само треба да урадите ... само мислим ... то је све.

*this is some retarded ass period...


Edit:

I went to San Juan Capistrano. It was beautiful and amazing. I loved being in the church. Ate at a descent place. Listening to music seems to ease my mind. I love the weather in San Diego... beautiful. Perhaps later I will eat out with Monica for awhile, drop off Apa at Davids later, and hang with monds if he can.

Dooms Day 2.

Song: Move Along - The All American Rejects

I'm not going to talk about school.

Being on my "dot" has led me to start thinking harder and more complex. All of the bad that I persisted on has finally been brought out and I am resisting the temptation of that deed. I feel quite disappointed in myself that I had to talk to Lalique about it. It's a difficult choice for me to choose whether or not I want to, but I don't want to fall back and start all over again. What is going on with me and what is going on in my head....?


I just need to breathe & relax...

Resisting for Myself & for all of you.

Dooms Day 1.

I don't really want to say much about school, but here are some quick tabs about it.

I was fully awake because of Starbucks. I was texting the whole time in class because Sociology was SO boring. I realized I started my 'time of the month'.

Once I got home... I started having a mental break down about everything. I was crying because I was in so much pain and it hurt to move and all. I despise it. I slept for 4-5 hours. My Tita Letty cooked me shrimp and Monica jogged to my house and bought me brownie mix to make tomorrow. I picked up David at Mervin's house and then went to his house. We were supposed to hang out earlier, but got mixed up with a lot of stuff. We chilled there for awhile and then went to Albertson's to buy some drumsticks. He bought the variety pack because he wanted the caramel I think? I don't remember. We waited awhile before we did anything because we were really lazy... I showed him his birthday video that I made and then I helped him with his homework. I was kind of surprised it took longer than I thought it would. Sadly, through the process of being on my menstrual cycle... my mood started to shift around & became easily irritated. I wasn't mad at David or anything, I was just in a terrible mood. Through all the hardwork and strenuous work we did we finally finished a tad before 12. I felt bad that he wanted to know what was wrong or something, but I really didn't know what to say because I didn't know why I was upset. I think this is the downfall of being on your period... you just bitch or get mad easily. D: If I knew David read this I would say... Thank you again for at least spending time with me today before I leave for Vegas. (& thank you Monica because you should realize what I said). I will keep my promise about your Spring Break. Time to sleep off the pmsing away... Sorry again though (if you read this).

The Count Down to...

"Dooms Day" aka my period.
quoted by Fawzi

Well this morning I was really lazy and cranky I was kinda mad at my Mom, but I didn't mean to be. I fell asleep till I had to pick up Rainier. I pretty much sucked at driving this morning until Gilbert and I tried racing and I won! =] Fell asleep in the car...

Math I was able to stay up.. and 'learn'... hahaha
English was really fun and interesting yet my mind couldn't participate as much as I wanted to... I loved our topics though it was pretty cool. Now my mind is all scattered in how to believe in the world and such, but I do enjoy it all.
After school I went home and bought Panera and dropped off Monica's food at school. Saw my cousin walking so I picked him up and my sister and got them In-n-Out.

At home I fell asleep for awhile... and then... just remained sleeping... Nothing super exciting. Soon Joshy called me for a ride home so I came to pick her up. We chilled at Aloha BBQ for awhile and just talked. It was fun and car ride to her place was a fun topic! =] I told her I had to watch her walk because she always disappears like nothing! Bwahahah

After I went to church to watch the choir practice. Everyone was kind of sad that I wasn't going to be singing with them on Sunday and they had a solo planned for me! D: but its okay they gave it to Ardelle which I don't mind cause I like the way she sings! The whole time during rehearsal Gerard and I just kept messing around with like jokes and all. We played hot hands and tried singing random things in the book that wasn't even musical at all. Talked about life and such it was fun! =] Then he start to sniff my purse... and chewed on a gum wrapper in my bag which I found odd but its okay! lmao I ran into Teddy which was enlightening because I do miss him! I am so excited for Summer and what he has planned! >.< WOOT WOOT!

I am now home and David said something simple to me that just kind of lightened up my day =] I am glad I was glad to talk to Lalique just for a tad but my internet was being whack so... I find her signed off D: lol its okay I still love her shes my boo!

I am so confused with how I am supposed to write an essay with no prompt.... Hrm...

Palm Sunday

Today I woke up Monica for church and Jesmond told me he wasn't able to make it. So Monica and I said hi to Francis and Willie! They are such a cute old couple I LOVE IT! =] Monica and I were like making crosses out of our palm leaves the whole time... and I was trying to think of places to eat at the same time haahha =] Jesmond joined us surprisingly but it was nice to see him. After we chilled and waited for traffic to die out... Monica and I went to eat Rubios and chilled. She got Starbucks too! We watched a couple of movies of tv... like Cruel Intentions and She's All That... Then all of the sudden we watched Not Another Teen Movie... that I apprently fell asleep on Monica hahahahahaha! After we ate.. again... LMAO! =] Chilled a bit more then I took her home... Jesmond came over too and we chilled. I plucked his eyebrows and my Auntie visited me and chilled for a bit. More hanging out with Jesmond while watching Cartoons then he jetted. I ate a lot today... D: BUT ToDaY is GOOD =]

Random Days are the Best

Well today I went out with Raquel and Aileen to the mall to buy Aileen her luggage for Vegas. We first went into Forever 21 and we bought a few things there because we felt like shopping =] Ran into Eliry and Francis which was cool. Her brother is so cute and nice! I just want to pinch him hahaha. Well when I got back home I picked up Monica and met up with Jesmond and Fawzi at well.. Fawzi's house hahaha. We went to Albertsons to buy ice cream... or I bought ice cream =] We watched a movie on TV then switched it to Pineapple Express right after. Before we did that we ate some pasta from Pizza Hut! I loved how Monica dropped most of the breadsticks on the floor hahahaha. STILL GOOD THOUGH! hahaha "don't judge me!" D: Movie was really funny and awesome! =] really made me laugh a lot. Hmm after we chilled and talked for awhile. They were helping Aileen with her outfit. We took a lot of macbook pictures and messed around! =] Once it was us four at my house we watched videos and took more pictures tee hee After we talked and gossiped more... and Jesmond kept farting which was hilarious! We watched the Food Network for along time though and we kept making more jokes =] I love you guys!

Family, Friends, FJC

Today I woke up and cleaned the house for awhile. I soon got ready and called Centeno and Erica that I was on my way to pick them up. Yes I did drive freeway to go to Fullerton! =] So I am proud of me though it isn’t the first time I’ve driven the freeway. Well when we got there we saw Renabette in the parking structure and walked our way to FJC. We ran into the whole Vocal Impressions and we all said our Hellos! I loved how Lalique screamed my name! “that’s what she said”? Lol. Idk sounds right to me ANYWHO! We all walked together to Mc Dees and ate in a big group! I sat with David, Kyle, and Fawzi! They are such a funny group of guys! I love them! We kept cracking jokes and talking to each other about stuff =] Sadly David had to point out that I can never tell the difference between my left and right D: hahahahaha which I really can’t… For once I didn’t finish my food and David ate it all for me… even my Sundae hahaha which was really good too! Fawzi took a lot of pictures at the table, which was cool because I WANT TO STEAL PICTURES! Jk or not! For along while David and Fawzi were sticking things on people and David managed to put one onto Mr Aquino’s butt! I couldn’t help but ask Angie to take my picture with it since I was sitting right to him! Hahahaha Jessie was enjoying though I believe because he had a HUGE smile on his face the whole time we were sticking that shit. Sooner or later I found out Fawzi stuck it on my beanie D: hahaha YUHP I love my boys esp Kyle and David! When we were eating together it reminded me of last year how much fun we had just chillin and talking to each other! Good times =] I LOVED IT! After we watched Orange Luther BTW they did REALLY GOOD! I loved their rendition of, “I Want You Back”. It was very clean and solid! =] Mr. Vu amazes us once again! Once VIP went to go warm up Fawzi and I moved to the very front to watch the group before VIP so we had good seats in the end! The group though… was awkward and weird… Angie Fawzi and I were whispering about how awkward they looked.. they didn’t sound bad.. but goodness…. VIP went up and I can say I am very proud of them on how well they sounded and performed! They improved a lot and I know for sure that I couldn’t stop smiling to them. At least 4 people asked me if I missed singing with the program and YES I DO. But we all have to eventually gotta move on so I just support =] I think I told a descent joke to Jesmond about that girl, “Niccee”? lolol I talked with Paul and Kim while VIP were taking their group pictures. We were talking about that group before them and we were like OMG YOU NOTICED THAT TOO?! And we just kept laughing and laughing! After we had a major mingle time together which I really liked! We were all talking and just chillin. A few things that happened was dancing behind Kyle, Centeno failing at jumping over a trash can, jumping onto Jesmonds back, bonding first with Lalique and then Rezianne XD, enjoying the sun, and etc! We soon watched Kyle and Joshy’s solos which I thought they did really good! After we chilled in the hallway for awhile. David and Lalique are pretty funny around each other bwahahhaha We soon moved to the field area and chilled there and messed around. Lalique and I talked more about stuff and then pretended to work out and was all over the floor and shit. We played this rock paper scissors game Jesmond and Lalique taught us that Kyle and I played together and I completely lost because my legs are too small to reach his damn foot D: They did a bunch of other things like putting people in a box, chilling on the benches, migrating around, Joshy and David massaged me, me falling asleep, chit chatting with Joshy, and etc etc! Once Lalique and co. went to the bridge Kyle and I went to where the old bench was and chilled on the floor catching up on life since we barely hang out. After was awards but I was lagging cause I was on the phone so Centeno and David stayed behind with me kinda. Once we got in we watched a group perform and a lady sing her solo’s…. hahaha Jesmond kept whispering jokes around Kyle and I and I couldn’t help but laugh a lot! I was also texting Lalique about something fun ;] she knows. Though VIP got 2nd I am still proud of them and congrats to Orange for 1st place! AND JENNY SWOISH for getting 1st in solo =] YUHP. After we chilled outside for awhile and talked. Before Centeno and I left Lalique and David talked with me for awhile and then we bounced out! David and I said bye to each other at least 5-10 times hahahahahahah =] Centeno and I had a good convo in the car and at Pho! =] I missed hanging out with him and we were able to talk about a lot of things together! I am now home tired and sleepy but I don’t want to do anything! =]

Happy Birthday to DAVID HAIG

My BEST FRIEND =]


Well today I woke up early to call David to tell him Happy Birthday! After I knocked out for a bit then woke up to get ready for school. I slept in my car till Rainier and Niko came. It was an interesting ride I can say hahahahaha. Rainier and I tried taking pictures that completely failed because we looked tired in all of them D: Oh well in class was pretty cool I met most of his friends which are like the cool people! I hope I "fit in". Hahahahaha. Rainier and I were just texting each other the whole time though he sat behind me. LOL Our rotational massages! =] I had a lot of fun being around Rainier since I don't get to spend time with him a lot! I got mad that for an hour I was waiting for my bus. -____- It left me very cranky. Once the bus came this girl sat next to me eating a Chewy Bar which made me... very hungry. D: hahaha but once I got home I ate and napped till 3. I went out to Davids house and handed his brother the money to supply him. Once David got home Mervin was with us too which wasn't too bad because I had to tell him the plan so he wouldn't be too confused what was going on. Lol they were joking around about punching Mervin in the balls. We surprised David by taking him to SamAsh to find a guitar he likes. He seemed like he didn't know where to start but he found one that he really liked, but it was expensive or not in our range. We tried haggling, but that didn't work out too well. I was playing the nylon guitars and they weren't bad. They made my fingers kind of happy cause they didn't hurt them like mine does. We went to Guitar Center and ended up buying his guitar there. It was the same one, but for a better deal and price! =] While they were doing their thing... Alyssa, Kevin, and I went to play with the keyboards and making jokes that we can all make music together and just making a bunch of noise! =] Good jokes good jokes. One the way to Carls Jr. I kinda knocked out even on the way back. I couldn't stay up because car rides make me sleepy. Once I got to his place we met this girl. I forgot her name, but most of them didn't like her. hahahahaha Alyssa is funny though when she kept talking trash. We ate Carls Jr and we split the Bourbon Burger into 3 to try it together and then we all ate our own thing. It was GOOD! =] Lol we watched TV and then I watched Mervin and David do homework. It was kind of odd watching it happen then I was like perhaps its only a birthday thing hahahaha. The cake was good and it took David forever to blow out the candles! hahahahaha. and that girl kept saying all this weird stuff and Mervin and I kept laughing because we all wanted to say "thats what she said". Same with David except we kept giggling bout it and hes all VAL! hahahaha but I guess I suck at explaining things. After we all took a break and just tried to rest and watch Smallville for awhile. Mervin got me to poke Davids butt, which I wouldn't normally do, but... yeah ahhahahahaha. We started doing jokes and riddles which were fun! After we took Mervin home then helped his mom get water. We went back and watched more TV. David and I went to take a nap for awhile. My back hurt all day so David got his mom to massage my back which was HEAVEN! XD SERIOUSLY! I LOVED IT! hahahahah she kept talking about my butt though which was kind of funny and she kept making jokes about making it smaller. Then chilled more. After I needed to leave but he didn't want me to go, so I waited till he fell asleep and asked his brother to lock the door for me.

Today was a good day and I am glad David enjoyed his birthday! I hope he likes his present and everyone that helped pitch in! =] I love my Best Friend!! Happy Birthday Once again!

A-Roz.

Today was quite fun.
I picked up Rainier from his house and then we chilled in the parking lot of the mall for awhile just chillaxin' waiting for Gilbert. When we hit the road I fell asleep as fast as I could because I needed to be awake for Math class. At school I woke up all weird and all... O.o idk. Math was better today. Learned a lot and tried not to complain about her accent or teaching. I am just trying to... 'adapt'. After I went into English class. I felt bad that my last quarter Prof. was trying to talk to me but I had my headphones blasted then I soon realized and was like o0o0o... lol In class I am kind of glad I made friends with like 2-3 of the girls that sat around me because idk its not fun not having to talk to anyone in class. We played the name game for an hour which killed a lot of time. It was cool learninga bout the people around us and we were all like asking each other questions and really into it! =] I loved it! After we just had to listen to a bit of lecture and a small discussion but nothing major or anything. I went home all alone again. hahaha I kinda wish I had someone to go home with because it gets lonely. When I got home I ate for awhile and went online for a little bit. I wasn't really into doing anything so I fell asleep till 6. I tried to wake up Monica so we can jog together, but I guess that didn't work out. I started to feel a bit sad and all so I went on a jog on my own for like 45 minutes. It went well because I did feel better and gross at the same time. Plus my asthma wasn't really in the mood, but I had to "push for it"... haha. Monica texted me near the end of my jog which was really sad because I really wanted to jog with her. I showered then picked her up at her house. We went to Chow King to eat some food. It was good and we kept cracking jokes on names and stuff. She worked on Mervins stuff then I called David and asked him something or whatnot. Now I am home learning "Tell Me Where It Hurts" on the guitar! =] Its making me quite happy I am learning it though!