Independent

Some people do not realize that I do not seem to care about that situation anymore. I let him go along time ago and not planning on turning back. I am done and been done for along time. Am I being harsh? Maybe, but you get what you deserve. People do not seem to realize that all I need is a complete closure and I am done - whether it ends well or poorly - because all I can do is keep moving forward. It is kind of sad that I do not really care anymore, but once I am fed up - I am fed up. You know how I am; once I have made up my mind. It is what it is.

I guess you can say I am releasing all of my pain and hurt from my past because I do not need to dwell upon it anymore. I have grown from all of my bad experience and I will just carry on to something better. All I want to do is just feel free and relieved that I have overcome all of this unnecessary stress that has been lingering around my life for the past couple of months. I am not confused, I am not unsure, I am not making a wrong decision. I know everything I have made up is right for me.

I am happy with my life now, and I feel like I do not have much to worry about or stress out about. I love my family because they are literally all I have when I have nothing left and they are my backbone. I love my best friends I have because I know I can always count on them through thick and thin. I love my boyfriend because he always ends my day with a smile. I mean everyone makes me feel that way, but you know what I mean.

ANYWAYS

The VLFJK dinner went smoothly and I am really glad that it did because I won't lie, I did/do miss them. Everyone is busy and it is very rare for us to get together and just chill and talk. We had a lot of time to talk about different stuff and gossiped about some shiz going around. Pretty darn funny to say, but also sad.. hahahaha "Fakestuh" hahahahaha wompwomp. I think the one thing that got me really happy was just chilling in my room because it was just like old times when we would just lie there and talk or sing or do whatevers that we needed to do for choir hahaha. The person I missed the most was Kyle because I never ever see him. Singing in the car with him was hilarious, and I loved our talk before I dropped him home :] Thanks to Sonny he helped guide me home kinda when I got myself lost while driving in the dark and rain. Haha I felt really lame. No0o Joke.

Today I just did a lot of chilling with myself in my room, then I got to see Sonny Bay! In the beginning I was being such a poon, but after that everything went smooothly! :] Puahaha! I like our hanging out. It consists of either playing OMGPOP, Youtube, sleeping, eating, etc. I love living the simple life.

I am excited to see Xanthe tomorrow because I do not see her as often anymore. I don't know what to wear once again for our lunch date at the Korean BBQ place hahaha.Whoo hoo can't wait to catch up with her! :] PLUS, I need to remind myself I need to start buying her baby shower stuff because I am getting her a buttload of things whoo hoo! :]

Dec 24th. will be the first time that our family will be celebrating our Christmas party on that day. I am kind of sad that we're not doing anything on Christmas, but I'll see. I don't know what I am doing on Christmas yet. & on the eve its also Baby Laliquekae's birthday! I need to find a way to stop by her casa to greet her! O:

I can't believe Christmas is literally right there. I am really excited especially since I constantly play Christmas music almost everywhere I can! Puahaha! YAY YAY YAY! The next thing I am excited about is New Years because well... "its the NEW year." WOMP!

Well I am done. TOODLE LOO