the song that keeps me up

On My Way Here

I took my first step
On that black and white kitchen floor
I sometimes wonder if that house is even there anymore
I had my first glimpse
Of love when I was five
I watched two people split apart
But still the three of us survived
I’ve seen the best
I’ve seen the worst
I wouldn’t change what I’ve been through
I’ve touched the sky
I’ve hit the wall
But I did what I had to

Chorus
On my way here
Where I am now
I’ve learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I’ve fallen hard but I’ve been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here

Oh yeah, yeah

My address has changed
Almost every year
I’ve found that standing still
Can quickly make a lifetime disappear
I’d rather try and fail
A thousand times denied
And this, whenever you feel pain
It lets you know you’re alive
I’ve been a fool
I’ve been afraid
Yeah, I’ve been loved
I’ve been lied to
I’ve been wrong
And I’ve been right
I stood up when I had to

Chorus

No guarantees
I believed that I would find
An open door or a light
To lead me to the other side
I guess that is why

Chorus

in case i forget

Friday all i can truly remember is that i woke up to text messages that really made me happy. it was from Lalique David and Monica :] the day went on and lalique and i went around a bit and talked for 30 min since time was kinda running out but it was still fun! she saw kyle baby so that was cutes except it was on webchat :] hmm the day went on and i would nap the rest of the time. my family monica and i went to watch Love Happens which was a really good movie i have to admit :] but i can't recall a lot so ta da!

yesterday was pretty cool i guess. i was a bit stressed out that all my plans were messed up but it turned out great anyways. i cleaned my room a bit because it was annoying the hell out of me so i got my room more 'organized' but its still not perfect. monds came over and we talked and caught up on some things. it was really fun singing taylor swift songs! lol i fail but i did my best of course hahaha i picked up monica and jojo and headed out to my nephews birthday party. it was fun cause we had good food and our conversations were really fun :]] puahahaha! i love my family they're so funny yet i missed my cousins because they were all out doing something else. i had to go to church at 630ish cause i had to sing at st marthas. lol it went pretty well for a first time. sadly i don't know tagalog soo WOMPWOMP. after we had to drop of jojo, went to pick up fawzi @ mervins and saw merv and david :] and then headed to target. we got some starbucks and roamed the store. LOL we kept messing around but it twas fun :] lol went back to my place and played Brawl for a couple of hours and then after they played Resident Evil till almost 4am I believe

i didn't like the fact that today i woke up feeling really sick and i am still really sick. it kind of brought my mood down by a lot. i washed my car so early in the morning so i am glad it looks at least clean outside. i need to vacuum but thats all :] david and i were texting in the morning figuring out our plan for the day. justin and i ended up going to davids house since david couldn't go out and we couldn't watch 9 so we postponed it. we played resident evil for a really really long time actually. around 5 or 6 we all took a nap for an hour or two. lol we continued and finished the game before 9. after we started to watch accepted for awhile. in the mean time david and i made a bet about something funny but he knows im gonna win but i made the bet somewhat even so its kinda fair. i think the only bad thing about my day was that i was still really sick at his house and i had a really bad headache most of the time. my happy moment was getting almost 30 critical hits :] today was fun with mister tart face! :] on the way home justin and i were talking about stuff which was pretty cool cause he was really helpful to understand what i had to say :] i am still sick and i am talking to fawzi and monica. now that i am done i am gonna go to bed :] goodnight world


note to self: stop it LOL

recapping without really remembering much

well lately things have been looking up and i have been getting back into the swag of things. i have been enjoying the time around me and whatevers. i didn't write for awhile cause i was actually sick in bed and didn't really do much actually. i remained home and i would go out to go buy some stuff if i needed to buy something if i needed to. i kind of spent a lot of time just texting around a lot and i didn't mind it what so ever because it helped me get used to my phone a bit :] ive been taking care of a dog named sula for a bit in my house and its been somewhat of a burden when the dog isn't trained so its been giving us a hard time. yet she has found 'companionship' within me for the past two days or so... so its pretty cool i guess. life is still the same, nothing much has changed, still miss the usually people i love dearly, so on and so on. i am starting to hit the gym again and i am helping choreograph NHS choir musical, Grease. I am pretty excited cause it'll be fun & it is somewhat a job. :] i've been webchatting with kyle for awhile but i enjoy it a lot because i do miss him. its really funny to say the least. i hung out with monds and fawzi taking pictures on top of the nut just for a bit. though i was still sick then. D: sokay though it was quite fun and an interesting experience. i soon started to hang out with monica today and had pasta with her :] redyed my hair and everything. church is church, random drama, but getting by. i love it when i have my unexpected times with lalique because its always interesting and we always have something to say and always catch up on what we need to do! BTW we need to plan the double :] puahahaha! ive been texting tart a lot more and its cool, but i make sure i give him his space when hes out with his friends, doing hw, or cleaning. its kinda funny how we haven't seen each other for like a few days and we both agreed that it felt like forever! i miss that guy though :] hrmm... yeah i can't wait for my weekend. i know its gonna be fun at least! :] i have a lot to look forward to! saturday with friends playing games, ivans party, singing at church for 3o min, then back to ivans. etc. sunday movies with tart :] yeah i guess i can say i just like being with my friends even though i don't get a lot of it. i miss them a lot but i will always love them regardless how bad things may get. we always find a way to overcome the obstacles we face and thats what i love about my friendships with these guys. i can say my week hasn't been so bland because at the same time i was able to at least share some moment with them all even if it was so little. i apologize i can't simply remember what i would write about like... day by day kind of thing, but i am too tired to actually figure that all out right now and i don't really plan to. all i can say... whatever happens... happens. i still believe everyone has good in them and their paths in life will become clearer once we figure out where we really want to go. so far i am still lost, but i dont mind being stranded because i know i am not alone. i still love all of my besties and my main4 a lot. and tart... all i can say/do is.. :]



btw sorry this is so long

something that says it all

nine kyuu nueve

I was supposed to go to the gym in the morning but that failed because I woke up all hella late because I went to sleep at 4 D: Oh well. I woke up and got ready for my "productive" day or whatever hahaha. Lets see lets see... Well I waited for Monica to get out of school so I was just on the internet and getting ready at the same time. I picked her up from school then we got some Thai Food cause we were hungry :] Wompwomp it twas really good! MY PHONE CAME IN TOO! I WAS SO EXCITED LOL! After awhile of chillin and "helping", David texted me asking if we wanted to chill with Fawzi and him. So we picked them across the street from Nogales. We "played" hide & seek with was an epic fail! LOL once we got to my house we chilled and talked a bit. Watched Aileen & Kristina play wii and Aileen kept being mean to David the whole time. Sula was making me nuts because she hates me but now I hate her HAHA! We "napped" in my room so that was cool too. I took them all back to school for the booster thing and I chilled there for a bit. David expected me to be back before their meeting ends so he put his enrichment pass on me but I came a bit after it ended. Oh well. I went to Prayer Meeting and stuff that was cool. Sonny and I practiced the song we had to sing together for next week I believe? iono. It turned out really well though I won't lie. I didn't stay long for practice cause I picked up Monica from school. We soon reached Albertsons and that was kinda fun :] The rest of my night was aiming with Fawzi, Monica, Jojo, J, Monds, & etc. Then I was just texting and phoning it up with David for the remainder of the time :]

David and his top AND bottom braces :]

Fawzi & David sleeping together ( no homo ) kinda

Miss Monica on her cellie :]

What happened on Labor Day?

In the morning I was doing my usual texting I suppose. Or woke up to something hilarious requiring texting.... O: Then I got ready and cleaned a bit. I picked up David and we went to Albertsons and failed at buy snacks as usual. :[ Monica came over and we all watched Mean Girls together. My mom blew a fit cause my sister pissed her off even more when she was mad so we were like -___- LOL BUT Rachel locked me out the house when she held the door opened for me from the garage. womp womp. Monica had to leave... & David and I picked up the wii from Raquels house since my cousin has my wii.. D: It's cool I suppose. We played the Resident Evil game that we've been anticipating for quite some time! :] ITS HELLA FUN! too bad I kinda suck but not too bad ;] wompwomp! Started to eat some BBQ with the family and Monds and Jojo trickled in. We were still playing as usual and eating food which is/was still fun! Before we headed to the pool Fawzi made his way to my house which was nice to see him! :] We were all talking for a bit. LMAO It was funny when we all got ready to swim and David used the towel as a cape. He looked like an asian superman! AHAHHA Rachel and Den secretly call him Clark Kent now because he reminds them of him hahahahahaa. Swimming was fun and Fawzi and Justin was just 'spectating' us in the water. Lol played a lot of games in the pool. Jojo is scary when we play hes fast and aggressive and everyone is like O: hahaha oh wells. Swam for almost 2 hours I think. When we got out David was playing with this bug which was cool and gross looking at the same time hahahaha so funny. Then I showered and the guys played videogames. Slowly everyone started to leave. Then it was left with David and I playing for awhile then I took him home. I chilled at his house for 2 hours I believe and we just chilled and ate cereal :] Then after I came home and did whatever and then did the texting thing and knocked out since my eyes were tired from swimming, gaming, and a whole bunch of chorline D: oh wells.

* I thought this picture was cute cause David got George to sleep on his bed by sitting with him :]


I woke up today and washed dishes for a bit, played videogames, ate and whatever. Not very fun but I am well content! I am glad I was able to hear from Lalique for a bit :]

Before I prolong this way too long haha

So lets see...

Friday

I woke up and hurried to get ready to go out with my Best Friend, Xanthe! :] I picked her up at her place and she got mad I didn't wear my boots out hahaha wompwomp! We ate Korean BBQ and just talked and talked. It was fun and chill and I love her dearly! After I had to wait an hour before I went to go pick up Monica from school. I just sat around doing nothing I think. I picked her up and we went to Aloha because she was quite hungry I believe. Went back to my place and ate, rested, chilled, talked, and me going nuts cause I was tired. An hour or so later Monica and I picked up David from his house and waited back at my place for Justin to get home. We all took a nap on my bed waiting for Justin to call. We prolonged our nap till 6ish because I was supposed to get my new phone at Verizon, but it became a fail hahaha. We just ordered it online. We picked up Jojo from Aaron & Gabe's house and headed to Justin's place. Family & friends just chillin' :] Played games, talked, chilled, and etc. I loved it, but I was quite cranky because I was still tired puahaha. After we played for like ever, we dropped Jojo home and then bought some Wingstop! :] We went back to my place and ate and it was muy delicioso! Hrm.. It was soon just Monica David and I just watching South Park :] Monica was tired so I took her home before 12 and then David chilled with me at my house since I was home alone and I always get freaked out when I am alone. D: Thanks though :] Napped and then I took him home. I fell asleep a bit outside his house cause I was super tired so he had to text and call me while I was driving home so I can stay awake. Puahaha KO'd.

Saturday

I woke up to David texting me asking if I was free and I was. I went to pick him up after he and I did chores. Chilled at Mervin's place a bit just waiting for him to finish getting ready. David was going all nuts over shmuckers, kudos, and salmon hahahaha. After we got gas, picked up Jojo from "school" and then headed to Justins. It was fun and Mervin noobed out cause he couldn't hang on all the fighting games hahahaha! I do enjoy playing Halo a lot even though I am quite terrible. BUT I have been improving... I'll never be as good as David or Fawzi, but I am just saying. LOL. El Fuerte!!! LOL. We got Carls Jr. and ate it at my house... talked, made jokes, and what not. I had to take Jojo home because of curfew so David Mervin and I wanted to go swimming. We wanted Monica to swim with us but she was... @ the LA Fair so we were like hrm.. we were kinda sorta looking for a 4th person but that failed miserably cause it was hella late. We rested in my room and changed our minds about swimming because my room was super cold enough to just chill. I started to get cranky so I was angry texting. David told me too cool off by watching tv with them which it did for awhile. I had to take them home soon after so I did. David talked to me outside his house to cool me off. I was venting a lot and I ended up crying.... o: And no David and I weren't fighting hahaha. Talking helped me blow off a lot of steam so I am well content :] I went home and David texted me 3 in the morning to tell me the great news about Ruca! :]]]]] Cutes

Sunday

I woke up at 8 to get ready for church. I looked kinda janky... or my face did but everything was cool LOL. I was WAY too tired to do anything and I was hella cranky. I saw Sonny and we just talked a bit and then I split up to talk with Monds. We chilled inside the room and then practiced. I think I looked like I wanted to rip someones head off at church, but idk thats just me hahaha. Mass was cool and fun cause I got to sit with Monds this time. I now remember why I always laughed in Jazz 08. it was cause Monds would mess up and make a face trying not to show it and I would be like X= wompwomp! Soon I went home. I was supposed to go to Davids but I couldn't. I threw a bitch fit all over the place cause I wanted to go to sleep and everyone was talking too much. I eventually fell asleep until Raquel came over to bring me my new romper! :] That thing is cutes! David ended up texting me when I went back to sleep asking me to come over instead lol. I brought all my stuff to his place and we worked on whatever needed to be done. We watched TV and Movies while we played games on the computer and ds. It was chill just resting on the couch and stuff. Yeah.. we just did a lot of lying around and nothing for a good while but I loved it cause I didn't feel like doing much either :] Lyss came home and showed me the babies! :] cute stuff man! wompwomp! Did some straight up chillin' with David till 1130 PM then went home. I brought Monicas binder to her and talked a bit at her house lmao shit was hilarious I am sorry babygirl. O: What else.... Oh yeah I came home and Tanner's were at my house so my Mom, Rachel, Den, Justin, Grant, and I were just talking around the tv and it was chill. We went to Denny's to eat which was quite fun and nice since we don't really go out often ;] Then when I got home I received my RESIDENT EVIL UMBRELLA CHRONICALS GAME! I am really happy! I texted David and we said our goodnights as always :]

Today

David woke me up asking if the game was real because he had a dream we were playing it HAHAAH and it was real. Thats cute ;] hahaha Excited today though so WOMPWOMP
I should be having a BBQ @ my house with familia and perhaps a couple of friends :] Swimming... maybe Speedzone too? IDK. LMAO Rachel and Den with their plans... ;] hella fun stuff idc. Hopefully we find a better Lasertag to go to XD

LETS SEE HOW MY DAY PLANS OUT?!

This was my friday

fawzi is ghetto (1:58:22 AM): whatd you do todays
xxshycexpinayxx (1:58:47 AM): hmmm
xxshycexpinayxx (1:58:51 AM): i went out with xanthe
xxshycexpinayxx (1:58:56 AM): had lunch
xxshycexpinayxx (1:58:58 AM): waited an hour
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:03 AM): picked up monica
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:08 AM): waited an hour and a half
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:10 AM): picked up david
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:19 AM): napped with david and monica at the same time
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:35 AM): went to verizon (didn't get a phone because we ordered it online instead)
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:43 AM): picked up jojo
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:50 AM): played videogames at justins house
xxshycexpinayxx (1:59:59 AM): dropped jojo home..
xxshycexpinayxx (2:00:09 AM): bought wingstop and ate at my house
xxshycexpinayxx (2:00:16 AM): took monica home
xxshycexpinayxx (2:00:31 AM): david stayed with me cause i was home alone
xxshycexpinayxx (2:00:37 AM): then i took david home
xxshycexpinayxx (2:00:40 AM): and i am still home alone
fawzi is ghetto (2:02:12 AM): oh nice o:
fawzi is ghetto (2:02:26 AM): now you dont have to blog
xxshycexpinayxx (2:02:29 AM): lmao
fawzi is ghetto (2:02:30 AM): =]
xxshycexpinayxx (2:02:31 AM): i am ognna
xxshycexpinayxx (2:02:34 AM): copy and paste this
xxshycexpinayxx (2:02:35 AM): acutally
xxshycexpinayxx (2:02:38 AM): since i am too lazy
fawzi is ghetto (2:02:40 AM): lol nice :-)
xxshycexpinayxx (2:02:43 AM): hold on





i shall make it a better blog... later... i am WAY TOO TIRED.

A Piece of Mind

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